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QCP #024 | Martin Jay Ruiz | Roll, Fall, Get Up: The Way of Wrestling and Skating
22-06-2022
QCP #024 | Martin Jay Ruiz | Roll, Fall, Get Up: The Way of Wrestling and Skating
GUEST BIO Martin Jay Ruiz is someone that found his way on a skateboard and later on to the wrestling mat as a troubled youth. At an early age, he found the blank canvases of the skate deck and the wrestling mat to be the wide-open spaces that allowed his soul the room for infinite expansion. To this day, his heart never lost its passion for the two mediums. He came from the streets of Santa Maria, California, pulled to the magnetic energy of San Francisco – a pilgrimage for skaters because of its steep, long, concrete hills that can send one bombing down a dance between weightlessness and death. As a former collegiate wrestler for SF State, he became the wrestling coach for Lowell High School, one of the most prestigious public high schools in the United States. Under his tutelage, he’s coached both boys and girls to multiple state championships. Martin also coaches wrestling to adults at Fight Culture Gym in Daly City; he earned his Blue Belt in Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu and is still an active competitor at thirty-three.   EPISODE NOTES Segment 1 brush with a murdererbenefits of learning self-defense | Combat sportsworking with a moving companywhat you find inside other people’s homesbiggest takeaways from working at a moving companyMartin Bio + BackgroundInjury stories (ankle + leg) boneless skate moveBones Brigademental and physical recovery from injuries Segment 2 Dealing with anxiety and depression through wrestling and skatingmental and physical support during injuryInjury Stories (shoulder) Dolores Park Hill Bombing GX 1000High School WrestlingSanta Maria GanglandHow Martin developed mental toughnessChasing the flow state Segment 3 undefeated as a seniortournament stories handling losses Coach Lars Jensen, SF State WrestlingMoving to SF | College Wrestling Career ExperienceMauricio WrightCollegiate Wrestling Practice Structure Segment 4 Collegiate vs High School WrestlingHow skateboarding helped mentally for wrestling the power of repetition the prototypical wrestling personalityDepletion in relation to stress and trauma “cleansing yourself” How to hold attention in the practice room coaching high schoolers Goal StructuringCoaching a state champ Segment 5 where did you learn how to restructure goals?7 habits of highly effective peoplethe joys of coachinganxiety and depression from childhood traumafinding a therapistWhere does your work ethic come from?intrinsic value, motivationWhat is your coaching philosophy?Differences between coaching boys and girlsHow to coach someone who is unmotivated Segment 6 how do you deal with when your best is not enough?coaching strategy/ practice structureJiu Jitsu vs Wrestling TrainingWest Coast WrestlingEvolution of wrestlingFight Culture, Daly Citywhat is it like to bomb a hill in sf
QCP #024 | Martin Jay Ruiz | Roll, Fall, Get Up: The Way of Wrestling and Skating
22-06-2022
QCP #024 | Martin Jay Ruiz | Roll, Fall, Get Up: The Way of Wrestling and Skating
GUEST BIO Martin Jay Ruiz is someone that found his way on a skateboard and later on to the wrestling mat as a troubled youth. At an early age, he found the blank canvases of the skate deck and the wrestling mat to be the wide-open spaces that allowed his soul the room for infinite expansion. To this day, his heart never lost its passion for the two mediums. He came from the streets of Santa Maria, California, pulled to the magnetic energy of San Francisco – a pilgrimage for skaters because of its steep, long, concrete hills that can send one bombing down a dance between weightlessness and death. As a former collegiate wrestler for SF State, he became the wrestling coach for Lowell High School, one of the most prestigious public high schools in the United States. Under his tutelage, he’s coached both boys and girls to multiple state championships. Martin also coaches wrestling to adults at Fight Culture Gym in Daly City; he earned his Blue Belt in Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu and is still an active competitor at thirty-three.   EPISODE NOTES Segment 1 brush with a murdererbenefits of learning self-defense | Combat sportsworking with a moving companywhat you find inside other people’s homesbiggest takeaways from working at a moving companyMartin Bio + BackgroundInjury stories (ankle + leg) boneless skate moveBones Brigademental and physical recovery from injuries Segment 2 Dealing with anxiety and depression through wrestling and skatingmental and physical support during injuryInjury Stories (shoulder) Dolores Park Hill Bombing GX 1000High School WrestlingSanta Maria GanglandHow Martin developed mental toughnessChasing the flow state Segment 3 undefeated as a seniortournament stories handling losses Coach Lars Jensen, SF State WrestlingMoving to SF | College Wrestling Career ExperienceMauricio WrightCollegiate Wrestling Practice Structure Segment 4 Collegiate vs High School WrestlingHow skateboarding helped mentally for wrestling the power of repetition the prototypical wrestling personalityDepletion in relation to stress and trauma “cleansing yourself” How to hold attention in the practice room coaching high schoolers Goal StructuringCoaching a state champ Segment 5 where did you learn how to restructure goals?7 habits of highly effective peoplethe joys of coachinganxiety and depression from childhood traumafinding a therapistWhere does your work ethic come from?intrinsic value, motivationWhat is your coaching philosophy?Differences between coaching boys and girlsHow to coach someone who is unmotivated Segment 6 how do you deal with when your best is not enough?coaching strategy/ practice structureJiu Jitsu vs Wrestling TrainingWest Coast WrestlingEvolution of wrestlingFight Culture, Daly Citywhat is it like to bomb a hill in sf
QCP #023 | Jake Luigi of Less Impressed, More Involved | The Adventure of Curiosity and Meta-Learning
08-06-2022
QCP #023 | Jake Luigi of Less Impressed, More Involved | The Adventure of Curiosity and Meta-Learning
Jake Luigi is the mind behind the Less Impressed, More Involved video blog on youtube. In less than a year, I saw his channel grow from a few hundred to well over seven and a half thousand subscribers. Some of his most popular videos have amassed sixty thousand views and continues to grow due to his cerebral, detailed, and cataloged approach to learning the art, the language, and the endless evolution of Jiu-Jitsu.  In a time that has never seen more opportunity than today for creative exploration and exchange of ideas, I hope that conversations like this one can give some insight into those that want to invest in themselves, their life's work, and the most authentic expression of themselves to what I believe will be the future of designing a flexible lifestyle - in creating content for an open, and shared information economy.  Just a heads up - this conversation has many Jiu-Jitsu references, but I believe it's a metaphor or an example for learning and mastery. It's a great insight into how to arrange a vast amount of information, organize it, and package it in a practical way that creates value for those seeking improvement. To be less impressed and more involved in our hobbies. And it's a conversation with someone who's very passionate about learning, mastery, and embracing the beginner's mindset.  I hope with this intention that you find much to take away from this conversation, as I have, and to please check out his channel, Less Impressed, More Involved, on YouTube. EPISODE COMING SOON! SEG 1 Van life/ Micro-greensBroccoli SproutsVertical FarmingTraining Jiu-Jitsuthe privilege of learning in the modern worldRethinking the Career PathYoutube Channel - Less Impressed, More InvolvedNote Taking TechniqueCommunication Goals, approach to improvements in communication SEG 2 Differences between mastery and general practitioners creating opportunities Visualization practicesAdam Ondra visualizationHandling the sudden growth of a community of followersWhat is a flexible lifestyle?How to approach learning/self-teaching / taking ownership of your learning (snippet)Ruotolo BrothersThe Talent CodeApproach to Learning and MasteryShokuninSunk Cost FallacyHunting in Lanai Story of Deer Arriving in Lanai Whats the feeling like from bagging your first deer?The wastefulness of hunting in LanaiHow long does it take to feel confident until you hunt for deer? Ethical Shot The technical aspects of environment for hunting deer. Understanding nature SEG 3 Resilience What is resilience?Who is the most resilient person you know? Spirituality Thoughts on death and suffering What is a flow state?Closing Books | Podcasts Skin in the GameAnti FragileMindset, Carol Dweck
QCP #022 | Stephanie Crawford, Death Doula | Death is Not Taboo
27-04-2022
QCP #022 | Stephanie Crawford, Death Doula | Death is Not Taboo
GUEST BIO Our next guest, Stephanie Crawford, is a hospice care nurse and Death Doula. She recently founded Awakened Endings - an end of life service and community dedicated to helping others understand and prepare for a better death. In this conversation, you’ll hear both a heavy and light-hearted approach to talking about the transition of death. You’ll learn about what a death cafe is, what a “green” burial is, what some commonalities she has witnessed observing people weeks away from their last breath, and much more. It’s an educational tool for those learning how to approach caring for a dying loved one. In piecing this episode together, I noticed that much of what is said during this conversation can also be a metaphor for having meaningful relationships with someone still alive and healthy. Why wait until someone is dying to listen and finally get to know who they really are? You’ll also hear firsthand what kind of person is willing to take on this role of helping bring death back into our culture - not as a traumatic, avoidable topic of discussion - but a reverent, growth transitioning, healing rite of passage.    Reach out to Stephanie Crawford, Death Doula: Serving in-person clients in the San Francisco Bay Area. Serving virtual clients worldwide.   Awakened Endings - WebsiteFor a FREE 45-minute consultation and all other inquiries, contact stephanie@awakenedendings.com     Show Notes Segment 1 Death/ NihilismType of nursing work - TraumaWhy is it hard to talk about death?Terror Management TheoryMortality and getting olderHow death can be normalizedAcceptance and deathHow to care for a dying/ suffering patientGoing through a divorce during the pandemic Practices in place to cope with suffering Segment 2 Living in the mindDivorce and Death Finding meaning through suffering Grief as a teacherViews on the healthcare  system Surgeries leading to worse state for elderly Discharging from hospice care/ education about hospice careTerri Schiavo CaseDie Wise, Stephen JenkinsonPain Management/ How to manage patient sufferingThe power of conversation, vulnerability and opening up (snippet)Dark Sense of Humor/ Survival Tactics Light hearted moments working in hospice care Segment 3 Being around family and loved ones, how to talk with loved ones about mortalityEducating people about the death process while still of sound mind and body Early Advanced DirectivesAssisted Death Catholic Death RitualsDifferent types of options for BurialRituals for Death practices to help make sense of death transition (snippet)Coco The Day of the Dead The Death CafeDesert Solitude, Edward AbbeyHuman CompostingPsychedelics and DeathDon't be so focused on the outcome, constant state of changeEye Contact with someone dying, what's that like?Death Connects us with our humanityDrawing boundaries for yourselfCommon themes witnessing people die Visioning academic paper Segment IV what have you learned about people?Work as a death doula, the process what is a death cafe? The Death Deck Game How to approach someone talking about deathHow to hold light and dark in a playful space (credit to Wisdom Sun Meditation Practice)How to build resilience
QCP #021 | Garnet “G Stacks” Geoffroy, BBQ Pit Builder | The Arc of Fire and Iron
21-04-2022
QCP #021 | Garnet “G Stacks” Geoffroy, BBQ Pit Builder | The Arc of Fire and Iron
GUEST BIO If you had BBQ in the Bay Area in the past ten years, there’s a good chance the meat was cooked on one of the units fabricated by our next guest – Garnet Geoffroy, also known as G Stacks – proud owner and welder of custom-made, handcrafted smokers and pits right here on the west coast of Northern California.  Barbecue pits are a great equalizer for entrepreneurs typically bogged down by the seemingly endless fees and regulations imparted on small business owners who have no resources or means of opening up a brick-and-mortar business. Barbecue pits and pitmasters are the embodiments of resilience. The techniques they’ve honed in and feel they’ve developed for cooking come from trial and error. Their cooks are subject to variables in time and weather, so they must be able to adapt and keep their techniques fluid and flexible to adjust as necessary to create consistency in their products.  G Stacks provides the fabric to turn these barbecue dreams into reality. His units are the legacy of what west coast barbecue is now evolving into – making a name for itself on the world stage.  I first met G Stacks while we both began our business ventures about ten years ago. With the support of our family, my wife and I started a booth at a local farmers market, which then blossomed into a full-blown catering company in less than five years in business. To help elevate the food and distinguish ourselves, I wanted to get a texas style offset smoker. Still, the closest quick search online led to businesses well outside of California, all the way to Texas even. After a month of searching, I finally found G Stacks and gave him a call, and in talking with him for about a good hour, I quickly learned about his business, passion for barbecue, and craft. His enthusiasm and love for cooking were infectious.  He went to great lengths to make sure we ended up with a suitable unit for us, and with his build and my work around the fire – we helped bring joy to the people that sought us out to do business with us and eat our food regularly. This conversation offers everything – your Monday motivation, insight into the systems in place that lead to inequality, and perspective from a resilient being that got to where he is today through hard work, observation, and determination, with a big enough heart and capacity for love to pay it back for those that most of us have forgotten or choose to look away from.  So as I’m sure with many of you, what started with a shared enthusiasm for something with a stranger – whether it be fire, food, barbecue, or whatever – can transform into a camaraderie that can be rekindled through nothing much other than good conversation. With that, please enjoy this uplifting discussion with a BBQ legend, a man of integrity and pride in his work, shedding light on others and especially his community, the people of Vallejo, CA – please enjoy this conversation with – Garnet “G Stacks” Geffory. REACH OUT HERE Instagram –  1 | ORIGINS Fout springs MandelaRio ConsumnesWelding program at Fout SpringsWelding HoodCompartment SyndromeAccidents at work/ SurgeriesFirst Job outside of weldingGrowing up in Vallejo E-40Product of the environmentThoughts on Community and LeadershipTaco Bell Drive Thru Shooting – Vallejo, CA 2019Homeless Youth in Vallejo SEGMENT 2 | THE CRAFT AND THE WORK The workers that help him Gustavo’s Story – 18 year old worker. Orphan from El Salvador. Ruby JewelsThe Work Ethic G-Stack’s Mom’s hustleCal Neva Casino Near Death Experiences/ Injuries/ SurgeriesWhat is it about welding that he loves?Why BBQ Pits?Agricultural Community Shade and Restoration Trailer Working with your handsShout outs to the celebrities that own his buildsTraeger’s/ Factory Grills and Smokers vs Handmade BespokeThe Secret Ingredient to SuccessWhat is California BBQ?Tankhouse BBQ SEGMENT 3 | NEVER QUIT Drive through PhilosophyBeing AvailableGStacks Praying for a Man in front of a Liquor StoreStreet MinistryHow to build a better communityMatthew 6:33The Smoke DoctorWho Motivates you? The Honor System Smokin Woods BBQ ADDITIONAL INFORMATION/ RESEARCH FOR THIS EPISODE
QCP #020 | Victor Thai, Tech Shaman and Conduit to the Psychedelic Realm
14-04-2022
QCP #020 | Victor Thai, Tech Shaman and Conduit to the Psychedelic Realm
GUEST BIO Victor Thai is one of the most interesting people I know. He's the son of Vietnamese refugees growing up as one of the only Asian kids in Richmond, Virginia.  I met him five years ago, training Jiu-Jitsu at the same gym where we spent a lot of nights after class doing some extra rolls. He was a newcomer to San Francisco from Virginia, and he introduced me to my first few psychedelic experiences.  He grew his mushrooms from home, stocks a wide variety of colorful teas in his pantry, owns fancy teacups and tea sets, and is one of the most fluid and creative competitors I've ever had the chance to share the mat with.  One time, I found out that he accidentally took a book I brought with me to read in the Muni on the way to the gym - Meditations by Marcus Aurelius - because it was left outside of my backpack. He apologized for taking the book and quickly returned it with the quip, "I only took it because I thought, who the fuck would read that book from this gym?".  That's the kind of guy he is, and I admire that in him. He's blunt, says what's on his mind, and relishes in the awkwardness that straightforwardness puts him in, which I feel is very rare these days.  In this conversation, he shares his personal history, including his parents, that met here in the states as refugees from Vietnam. He talks about his long-term relationship with his ex-girlfriend and the unexpected turn their relationship took after driving across the country with her from Virginia. He shares the impact of psychedelics on his life, how to embrace the comforts of solitude, and more.  This was a fun conversation hanging out in Tilden Park of Berkley, California, in the botanical garden just a few weeks before the end of winter.  It's a pleasure to introduce you to one of my good friends, a fellow Jiu-Jitsu practitioner (how cliche is that a guy with a podcast that does jiu-jitsu). A guy, who, to me, represents my future life regression, a guy that genuinely gives much less fucks than I do, a guy who doesn't sniff his own farts, doesn't care what side anyone is on, and even his own. Most importantly, a guy that lives with mindful intention and is always looking for a better explanation without any regard - The Tech Shaman,  Conduit to the Psychedelic World, Victor Thai.  SHOW NOTES | MENTIONS Vietnam War RefugeesVietnamese AmericansRacial Discrimination on Dating AppsSocratesThe Socratic Method
QCP #019 | Connor McCann of the Brain Drain Podcast | How Can We Better Relate To Each Other?
06-04-2022
QCP #019 | Connor McCann of the Brain Drain Podcast | How Can We Better Relate To Each Other?
GUEST BIO Connor McCann is the host of the Brain Drain Podcast. I came across his video about San Francisco's graffiti culture on YouTube, which was a topic that I was very interested in for so many reasons.  That led me to his other videos, topics about the far corners of the world, geopolitics, organized crime, interwoven between personal stories about growing up during the early to mid-90s as a son of Irish immigrants in the middle of the city of San Francisco at the cross streets of gang violence and cultural diversity.  In listening to his videos, I noticed the way he recalled information. The way he tells these stories, sometimes seemingly without any pre-written script, connecting the dots between two or more things that, on the surface, have no connection is nothing short of amazing to me because he often finds a way to make it work. On a deeper level, this conversation showed me how little I know and why it's vital to learn deeply about the cultures around us about the cultures around the world. How they affect us, the decisions we make, the decisions our leaders make for us, and how it affects the rest of the world, including some of the people in our communities, if not only because they are interesting stories, but because in learning we might be able to offer a unique observation to contribute ideas that spread love and light in the world. Or admit that we don't know enough and accept the moments that we must sit and listen to the people around us, despite the urge to jump to sudden conclusions. In taking on a project like this podcast, I thought to myself - how can I possibly contribute ideas that bring people together if I have no idea what deeply divides us in the first place? I hope this conversation inspires that in you, the way it has inspired me to question the personal, social, and systemic barriers between all of us, the people right next to you, and everyone you might come across on a daily basis. How can we better relate to one another? Connor McCann joins us from his place in Ashville, South Carolina. A place wherein recent years, he's made home. Although San Francisco is a place he holds close to his heart, he has no plans of returning any time soon. In this conversation, we get a glimpse of his side of the San Francisco cultural landscape, how to see the conflict from a multidimensional perspective, and most importantly, I got a sense of someone that has indeed crossed over the barriers and borders in his mind to seek truth with the awareness that there is always a different answer or explanation, and in embracing curiosity and our pursuit of knowledge, there is a deepening of our relationship with the world and the people around us.  SHOW NOTES | MENTIONS Carabas Barabas (sp?) Russian MafiaOdessaTsarist TimesBen DavisSan Francisco Gangs in the mid 90sCommonalities between Latin and FIlipino culturesIrish Conflict and HistoryTurkish MafiaKhmer RougeGeopolitics of SyriaKhmelnytsky Uprising - Stuck In the Middle episode (Brain Drain)Russian RevolutionFall of CommunismHapsburgsShrimp Boy ChowMohammed Nuru
QCP #018 | Franco Soriano, Ultra Runner | The Hundred Mile High and Lucky Survival Stories
30-03-2022
QCP #018 | Franco Soriano, Ultra Runner | The Hundred Mile High and Lucky Survival Stories
GUEST BIO Franco Soriano is a Filipino American ultra runner. He started running ten years ago at the age of 40 and gravitated towards the adventure of ultra running. He runs for the love of it. As much as I wanted to uncover a story about grit and willpower, this conversation showed me that sometimes it just takes a stoic mindset, careful planning, and taking it easy to develop mental toughness. It's all about the enjoyment and high you get when you cross the finish line. And then it's on to the next. I first met Franco searching for a community of Filipino Runners. As someone that loves to get out and run on the trail, I quickly saw that most trail runners are not people of color. For something so simple that brought beauty and self-actualization into my life, I couldn't help but ask myself, why is that? Is it because we just haven't been exposed? Is it conditioning to prioritize other things? SOME OF FRANCO'S NOTABLE RACES Tahoe Rim Trail 100Hurt 100The Western States 100Bad Water 135 milerLeadvilleMt Whitney Summit (14k Elevation)SF Northface Endurance Challenge - 50 miles LEARNING THE BARRIERS TO BREAK THEM Some of you listening to this podcast may have heard an instance many years ago when I was in high school. I was picking up trash for financial aid at a prestigious catholic high school in the peninsula alongside the football team practice. And a guy yells out between huddles, "haha, you're not out here cuz you're Filipino!". Maybe it was just a joke, but that hit home, and I'm still talking about it more than 20 years later. There was a Filipino guy on the football team, in fact.  The stereotypes I learned in a less homogeneous environment outside of Daly City were eye-opening. Filipinos love shopping, love to collect clothes and shoes, are only bold in numbers, only hang out in malls and play pool. And to be honest, coming from Daly City, one of the highest concentrations of Filipinos in the world outside of the Philippines, it was hard not to argue it, because up until that point, it was all I knew. But as I grew older, I belive that was never true. Yes, just like everyone else, we like nice things - the clothes, the shoes, the material things that everyone else has the right to enjoy. But by my experience alone, if that was the focus on what cultures outside our bubble saw, I knew countless others had more substance to themselves than what I heard in that joke. Which is why I wanted to seek out people like Franco in the first place. I want to prove those stereotypes wrong. I hope that this conversation will help inspire others to achieve their levels of greatness without any concern or thought for what anything outside of themselves can bring. I wanted to have this conversation to go out of my way to prove those people wrong by using the words in this conversation, and the actions of people like Franco, to fight back and be a measure of the standard representation and not the exception. NOTES | MENTIONS Maria Lorena RamirezKilian JornetUltra Marathon Man, Dean KarnazesBorn to Run, Christopher McDougallBarkley MarathonsIditarod 350Fueling Strategy for UltraMarathons
QCP #017 | Tom Brown III |  How Reconnecting with Nature Teaches Resilience, Self-Reliance, and Awareness
23-03-2022
QCP #017 | Tom Brown III | How Reconnecting with Nature Teaches Resilience, Self-Reliance, and Awareness
GUEST BIO Tom Brown III is the founder of FutureNature and T3Photography. He is a lifelong practitioner and living guide of ancestral skills, a frequent contributor, and a consultant to the Anchored Outdoors network. As a lifelong practitioner of ancestral skills under his father Tom Brown Jr. - prolific author and Founder of Tracker Wilderness Survival School.  Tom has devoted his life to passing on his knowledge of these skills. He works diligently as an educator, a steward of the land, to help return the connection to the natural world and awareness back to our wild selves. He joins us from his homestead in Oregon by Mount Hood - his home base for sharing his knowledge and experience through teaching, writing, and photography. He hopes to, in his words, "help people see Nature through his eyes, leading them to understand that spectacular natural beauty can be found anywhere, no matter where you may be." I believe that our ability to be resilient is not gone; it's simply re-awakening what we already have innately in us through the examples of how our ancestors lived and what people like Tom bring to light. To recognize our abundance, that we do have it all, and that there is always much to learn about our home here on earth and how to undo our distractions, even if only a little bit, to become better stewards of the land. It was an honor to sit with Tom III and listen intently as he shared his passion for learning and sharing some of the knowledge passed on to him by his father, Tom Brown Jr., and his grandfather, Stalking Wolf, who taught his father. And it was also great to hear some perspective from someone who, through his lifetime devotion to a life outdoors and educating others to find their own way in life, figures out ways of balancing both modern and primitive aspects of our human experience. NOTES | MENTIONS TOM BROWN III LINKS AND MORE INFORMATION Find Tom's work and more information here demos the Proper way to walk in Nature  EPISODE NOTES | MENTIONS Anchored OutdoorsSapiens: A Brief History of Human Kind, by Yuval Noah HarrariTom’s educationTom’s teaching styleTom on failurePaiute Native AmericansStalking WolfTom Brown Jr. Tom Brown Jr. Books Hunter-gatherer societiesThe Rational optimist by Matt RidleyArguments in Climate ChangeBenefits of Being in NaturePine Needle TeaCastaway MovieNomads that Survived TsunamiSteller's Jay1491 by Charles C. MannBaseline vs DisruptionCamasStarlinkGo BagHomesteadingFactory FarmingSurvival Show PhoniesLes Stroud SurvivormanDeep Survival Laurence GonzalesDune - Frank HerbertMarcus Aurelius - “It is not death that a man should fear, but he should fear never beginning to live."Bob Marshall WildernessTrackers Earth - Bay Area Wilderness Survival CoursesChronic Wasting Disease Prion Disease Sit Spots
QCP #16 |  Have We Forgotten to Know History and Know Self?  | Stephanie Balon, MA, AMFT
16-03-2022
QCP #16 | Have We Forgotten to Know History and Know Self? | Stephanie Balon, MA, AMFT
"No history, no self. Know history, know self."  - Jose Rizal Many of us don't know about the trauma that our parents harbor. As children of parents that immigrated to the United States, the same trauma they harbor could be passed on to us, and manifested in different ways.    Some of us might have these questions like -  Who am I?  Why do we speak this way?  Why do I not know anything about you, our grandparents, or relatives?  Why is it hard to approach my parents with these questions?   Our next guest, Stephanie Balon has taken the first giant steps to help answer these questions, and the countless others we have faced for generations. The idea of providing space, even if only for conversation, might provide a way to heal our forgotten, indigenous, colonialized ways of living - of being together in community. Or as we say in our native language - in Kapwa. GUEST BIO Stephanie Balon is a mental health clinician, an expressive arts therapist with a focus on trauma-informed care, narrative and cultural therapeutic approaches. She holds a bachelor's degree in Sociology from the University of Washington and a Master's in Counseling Psychology from the California Institute of Integral Studies in San Francisco.   With over 15 years in the non-profit sector, and her work as an activist, she helped raise awareness for the Filipina/o/x Community. As a co-chair for the Filipino Mental Health Initiative of San Mateo County, she has received recognition for her community activism from District 5 supervisor, David Canepa. For congresswoman Jackie Speier, she served on the Asian American Advisory Committee to devise strategies for community engagement. Stephanie also helped raise over two and a half million dollars with the intention to co-found the first Filipino Cultural Center in San Mateo county that aims to provide mental health and wellness services for the Filipino Community.   NOTES | MENTIONS | RESOURCES GET INVOLVED + SUPPORT Filipino Mental Health Initiative of San Mateo County Kapwa Gardens Soma Pilipinas Undiscovered SF Bruce Lee Chosen Ancestors generational/ intergenerational trauma Kapwa Intergenerational Resilience Maya Angelou - “I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.” KTEH - channel 26 Non Profit business vs for profit business What is the difference? What type of person does it take to have longevity in this kind of work? What are the metrics of success of nonprofit work? Paying people what they are worth. How to change nonprofit work. Exploitation in nonprofit work Doreen Fernandez - how to indigenize a dish Colonial Mentality Cognitive Dissonance H.E.R. Why isn't there a "Filipino Town" like there are China Towns Kapwa Cultural Center and Cafe Liwanag, Daly City Helping the Senior Community with Food Security How to approach different cultures about mental health, and provide an open space for expression. How to be culturally attuned Healing Practices Kapihan - Filipino coffee house. To sit and have coffee Healing Ritual Practices - How to practice self love What is a mentorship? Awakening, Anthony de Mello
QCP #015 | Breakin’ in the Bay, Battles, and Bullies | Tudor Atienza
14-03-2022
QCP #015 | Breakin’ in the Bay, Battles, and Bullies | Tudor Atienza
A mushroom cloud - like the ones you see from a distance after a volcanic eruption or a nuclear explosion, is caused by the process scientifically described in the Rayleigh-Taylor Instability (RTI). I don’t intend and am highly unqualified to describe in scientific detail what happens during an RTI. But my understanding (based on what I've found on the interwebs) uses the everyday example of what you see when trying to mix oil and water.  Water - the lighter fluid in density based on the Earth's gravity will always be below the oil, a much denser fluid that will always float to the surface.  Let's imagine a physical model of this process by inverting the liquids in two separate jars. Oil in the bottom jar, water at the top. In between the jars, we add a removable barrier between them.  Once we remove the barrier we should see, in slow motion, the oil pushing to the surface. The oil pushing up from the water, and into the surface will create a mushroom-shaped movement. Some would argue, that moves similar to the wax in a lava lamp or pouring cream into your morning cup of coffee. In the same way, we saw fidget spinners, Pokemon go, and hoverboards in recent memory - a similar explosion in the 80s and 90s gave us breakdancing. Dance styles like the uprock, popping, and strutting, started regionally in the 70s by kids in the Black and Latino communities in the burrows of New York, and cities all over California. Over time, they all evolved and melded together to what the world widely knows now as breakdancing. Breakdancing will be an official event of the Paris Olympic games in 2024. The more conversations I have with people from different walks of life, the more I see that all of us have unique outlets of expression. Especially as youths, to gain a semblance of control for what can feel, at times, like an uncontrollable reality. The magnetic pull to immerse ourselves in something like breakdancing, that connects us with a community. To express what might be challenging to put into words through movement.  We all have our own version of this. In this conversation, we welcome back Tudor Atienza, a good friend and guest from episode 007, Dazed and Confused in Daly City. Today, he’s a loving husband, father of two girls, and a hardworking manager for one of San Francisco's transportation branches.  He is where he is today because he overcame a troubled childhood. Losing his mother at an early age, bullying, and much more with what we will unpack together in this and future episodes. San Francisco has always been known as the home to countless cultural movements, tech innovations, and one of the most expensive places in the world to live. But stories of hardworking, struggling, lesser-known cultures and communities deserve just as much of a platform as the CEOs and cultural figures that we've often heard any and everywhere throughout history. It’s a story about the children of immigrants like the Filipinos in Daly City and all over the Bay Area, that latched on to an artform that is equally wild, dynamic, and innovative. A story of how a movement spread across the globe without the help of Youtube and masterclass tutorials. And a story about how regular kids from all over the world can come together and work as hard as any world-class gymnast to contort their bodies, expand and string together seemingly impossible moves that appear to suspend them above ground.  An art form all within the moments that the DJ and breakbeat loop allows, feel a bit more than human. An art form where a battle isn’t settled with detonating bombs, but the eruption you get from the crowd, it seems, with the energy simply made from the style you create from the dynamic movement of the human body. Welcome back, Tudor Atienza!   NOTES | MENTIONS Beatstreet | Battle at the RoxySoul Train BreakdancingApache, Incredible Bongo BandRocksteady CrewPsycho BunniesHype-a-Delic AlliancePRT (Prototype)T-FlareThomas FlarePlanet B-Boy DocumentaryBrazilian Jiu JitsuIndian Summer - (article about the political correctness of the use of the words) ADDITIONAL LINKS Oakland Boogaloo, KQED DOCUMENTARYHistory of Filipino's and Dance - ArticleKQED Video, History of Filipino's and dancePoppin' in San JosePaulskee - Bay Area Breakdancing/ Hip Hop ambassadorNuclear Blasts Slow Motion Nuclear ExplosionNuclear Fireball PhotosRayleigh-Taylor Visual Simulation
QCP #014 | Ivan C Lopez - Painter, Ceramicist, and Muralist | Healing Through Creativity, Plant Medicine, And Listening To The Universe
09-03-2022
QCP #014 | Ivan C Lopez - Painter, Ceramicist, and Muralist | Healing Through Creativity, Plant Medicine, And Listening To The Universe
GUEST BIO Ivan C Lopez is an artist from San Francisco by way of Columbia. He co-founded and helped build Artillery Art Gallery - a creative community space in the heart of the Mission. His passion to provide space for community inspires others to find what has been explorative and healing for him. Through ceramics and painting, Ivan hopes to bring balance; within a connection to the natural world alongside the concrete walls of the city. I wanted to speak with Ivan because he connects this idea of the modern human being returning to our wild selves by communing with our indigenous selves. Not only through embracing creativity, but through encouraging and teaching others to pick up a brush to play with colors. Or taking a lump of clay and sitting at a table to be creative together. In this way, we embrace our childlike curiosity to explore and meditate upon the infinite ways of knowing ourselves, just in the same way we were created from virtually nothing. In this conversation, Ivan shares his creative process, his journey in his lifetime exploration of art, self-discovery, and community. Please enjoy this stream of consciousness conversation beneath a canopy of redwood trees in McClaren Park San Francisco, on Ohlone Rammaytus land - with the artist, the wild human, the mindfully grounded, Ivan Camilo Lopez. Ivan's Instagram: @ivanclopez Artillery Art Gallery Ivan's Art here. SHOW NOTES Summer SearchCeramic ArtThe AmazonsAyahuascaPlant Medicine ElderberryKava Root Bike packingIvan's Wild Human's Collection Additional Links and Resources
QCP #011 | River Pember, Early Childhood Teacher | Finding Balance Through Embracing Feminine Energy
20-02-2022
QCP #011 | River Pember, Early Childhood Teacher | Finding Balance Through Embracing Feminine Energy
River has a passion for holistic teaching. Beginning with her experience with the Wilderness Youth Project, and now with her work teaching at a Waldorf Elementary School where I met her as a new addition to the after-care program. While teaching early childhood students at the school, she also trains to officially become a Waldorf Education teacher. As a graduate from UC Santa Barbara, she earned a Bachelors's Degree in Feminist studies. Some of the many experiences that she graciously shares on this episode include traveling abroad to Thailand where she studied Buddhist Social Theory, and was welcomed to spend time around an all-women sect of Buddhist monks. When she's not teaching she can be found sailing in the San Francisco Bay or spinning a fire hula hoop.   RESOURCES FOR TRANS/ LGBTQ+ COMMUNITIES IN SAN FRANCISCO/ BAY AREA   NOTES | MENTIONS | RESOURCES   Fluid Dynamics2008 FashionThe Virgin SuicidesFelt Flower CrownsFeminist StudiesRachel Rabbit WhiteTavi GevandsonHigh School Feminist ClubGenetic CounselorSocial DynamicsArtistry vs Science, Gender PoliticsThai Buddhist ArtThai Buddhist Social TheoryTerra Vada Buddhist Sect (women monks)Wilderness Youth ProjectHow to address curious and inquisitive childrenMugwortPoison OakElderberryMontessori EducationCardboard LoomWaldorf EducationCo-ParentingThe Ohlone wayTerence McKenna Dominator CultureSomatic therapyKinkPsychedelic assisted therapyEffects of MDMA on the brainTrans vs Cis -genderGenerational SufferingExistential SufferingFire Hula hoopingHolistic HoopingBurning ManRave CulturePoi Balls FireThailand Fire performancesRope DartFlow ToysFire Staff PerformanceDragon StaffSailingSave the MermaidsKittyhawk movement artsbell hooksPolyamory   RIVER'S PERSONAL NOTES | MENTIONS | RESOURCES   River graciously requested and corrected some of her own comments on this episode out of respect for the communities and people mentioned in this episode. I have pasted them below and have edited them only for grammar and punctuation.   Talking about violence against gender non conforming AMAB/AMFAB (assigned female/male at birth) people/violence against trans folks— provide educational resource as well as a support resource for folks in the Bay Area who are experiencing violence for their gender expression (21-23 mins in or so). Anti trans violence and the murder of trans folks is STILL A BIG ISSUE. Even in the Bay Area trans kids are kicked out of their homes and estranged from their families. I wish I mentioned this but I did not! GNC (gender non conforming)/transgender representation in media…I’ve noticed a lot more trans femme representation than trans masc representation (trans masculine ppl have mentioned this to me too). Also a lot less common for a non “passing” trans feminine person to be represented in media, which excludes a lot of folks who cannot access expensive gender affirming surgeries. Forest is from MISSOURI, not Ohio or Minnesota!! Also link to Forest’s content. :) ( for Thai studies: “Thai Buddhist Social Theory” by Tavivat PuntatigvivatTomboys of Thailand:  I wrongly called ladyboys men who are embodying a feminine persona! After a quick Google search I’ve actually found that Kathoeys or Ladyboys in Thailand are transgender (amab femme). I think this may be different than tomboys, who seem to still identify as women, despite presenting as more masculine. (Marie Claire article). Both of these identities could still possibly be evolving and changing, though! Perhaps a topic for more in-depth research.
QCP #010 | Ria and Raul Pelayo | Emerging Stronger from Pregnancy Loss
03-02-2022
QCP #010 | Ria and Raul Pelayo | Emerging Stronger from Pregnancy Loss
Meet our dear friends, Ria and Raul Pelayo. In their four years of marriage, they come forward with their struggles in starting a family due to recurring pregnancy loss. We are also joined by my wife, my life partner - JoAnn. Both of us wanted to do an episode like this from the beginning, but couldn't conceptualize what, or how it could be done until Ria came forward with her forth miscarriage on social media. Together, we hope to provide a safe space to empower others to start their own conversations or seek help in dealing with grief, loss, trauma - the things that are hard to bring up casually, or are considered "downers" to bring up in conversation. This was a magical episode, with many unexpected nuances happening in our surroundings, and helped with the charm of the episode, on top of Ria and Raul bringing such a light-hearted vibe to a very heavy topic for most people. Ria and Raul have graciously offered to be a resource to those experiencing similar grief NOTES | MENTIONS | RESOURCES: Social Media helping empower othersPassive Family Dynamics/ Non confrontationalHow to explain your suffering to someone that doesn’t knowDealing with pressure from family to have babiesInfertilityIVF treatmentD and CHow to provide space for others to express their grief?What are other ways to help deal with emotional distress? Resources for infertility and recurring pregnancy loss r/childfreeThe Silent SororityFertility DocsR/infertilityPeanutInfertility acronymsHow men can talk about IVF/ Recurring Pregnancy loss/ etc
QCP #009 | A Trip Across the World and Into the Multiverse with Jethro
28-01-2022
QCP #009 | A Trip Across the World and Into the Multiverse with Jethro
Jethro is, what I like to call for fun, my younger brother from another mother. He’s the youngest son of my dad’s twin brother. Currently residing in Manila, by way of Cagayan de Oro Philippines. With his short stay in Manila, he immersed himself in his art within the underground hip-hop community. Through finding his artistic medium, he fixated his lens on the vibrant, unsung scene of the culture in Metro Manila.    However, his passion was only realized during a difficult time. At six foot four, he was a highly scouted youth basketball player by some of the most prestigious universities in the Philippines. As a professional basketball hopeful, his career took an abrupt stop after blowing his knee during the recruiting process. Without resources for surgery, It forced him to rethink his path. With help from his family and friends, he found his way - pulled by the gravity of a creative life. Through teaching himself the craft of editing and networking, the discipline he learned from basketball earned him some professional opportunities with film editing.    While we are similar on the surface level in an infinite number of ways, the reality is that we are also strangers to each other. I’m from the states, he’s from the Philippines. He grew up on a farm and moved to the city to connect with people. I was born in the city and sometimes work on a farm to disconnect from people (no offense).   Here in the States, many of us Filipino Americans are slowly finding our footing in reconnecting with our ancestral roots. We often find ourselves holding the idea of what it means to be a Filipino American on one side, and what it means to be a Filipino on the other. While it’s at times, the narrative of decolonizing our thoughts, our food, and our thinking, I find it difficult at times to answer some of these questions, only because they lead to more puzzling questions.     Enjoy!   Manila/ Ph Artists | Places | Mentions   Jethro's WorkBlack Market Manila Facebook linkWebsiteInstagram Cagayan De OroMavs Phoenomenal Basketball - Youtube Channel88 Rising InstagramYoutube Channel Rich BrianNiki and Joji
QCP #008 | Toño Ramirez | Finding The River of Our Authentic Self
21-01-2022
QCP #008 | Toño Ramirez | Finding The River of Our Authentic Self
Toño Ramirez is a free spirit, a truth-seeker, an explorer. I'll stop there because he, in my opinion, is only bogged down by more labels. I first met him on a trash cleanup organized by Vince of RefuseRefuseSF.org (our first guest on the podcast). Toño (alias used for privacy purposes) earned a bachelor's degree from The Ohio State University, a master's degree from UC Berkley, and is currently pursuing a Ph.D. All degrees in his background are in the field of Mechanical Engineering. I was hoping to have a discussion to learn about engineering, and how they might apply to set goals, to create something actionable for me and whoever listens. However, I ended up keeping my notebook closed and tucked away because what follows is something more spontaneous, honest, alive, and profound in so many ways I never expected. This conversation touches on many topics and would be beneficial for those who currently struggle or who have struggled with loneliness, compulsions and addictions, depression, or anyone questioning their self-worth. I hope you'll hear Toño is someone that has done the work and is an example of if you look and let the universe do its thing, embrace your truth, embrace your truest self with love, that (in his words) "the universe/everything will conspire to reward you." Please enjoy this dip into a winding river of conversation with Toño Ramirez. NOTES | MENTIONS: Reflection on Picture TakingProcessing the holiday seasonGuanejuatoFamily Life from Dallas to MexicoConversational mannersAnger in relation to our authentic selvesDefining unsolicited therapy sessions - being “talked at”Helping people that don't askExpecting people to be a source of happinessExpression and vitality, being in the present momentRethinking the human child rearing experienceThe perfect child fallacy, how children develop codependencyTroika Dance Music - Russian FolkAcademic LifeMagnet SchoolFighting Our NatureThoughts on the future of Engineering in relation to NatureCobalt Mines in AfricaSedation, and the many forms of drugsToxic white lake - Onondaga LakeAbundance vs scarcityDoing nothingVietnam, Phong Nha Cave SystemLindsay C Gibson Author - Adult Children of Emotionally Immature ParentsBenefits of SolitudeChild Rearing RealitiesThe Drama of the Gifted Child - Alice MillerAlcoholismCompulsive SexSensing to be in need of selfIs love an addiction?What we deserve, to be treated as godthe river, conspires
QCP #007 | The New Filipino American Folk Tales of Daly City
04-01-2022
QCP #007 | The New Filipino American Folk Tales of Daly City
Daly City is one of the closest suburbs in the outer borders of San Francisco, located directly to the South. It's home to one of the densest populations of Filipinos, anywhere outside of the Philippines, comprising 33% of the total population in a 2010 census.   From the late ’80s to the early 2000s, Daly City helped to raise some of the world's most famous DJs, and dance groups. It was a big part of the history here on the west coast for the Filipino and Hip-Hop communities.    Most of the Filipino youth here in Daly City and the Bay Area were made up of second-generation Americans. As the sons and daughters of first-generation immigrants, we were trying to find our footing, our voice, often overshadowed within the makeup of the rich, diverse culture found in San Francisco. The closest kinship we gravitated towards, at least in the people I know, identified with the Black and Latin-American music and culture of the time, weaving in our own rhythms and color palette, while forming our own community to bond us close together.    While much of this scene has somewhat been well documented, there's a cast of characters behind the scenes - around the turntables, on the dance floor, roaming the streets, soaking in the gravity of what seemed to just be a bunch of kids during that time just trying to find an identity.   This conversation scratches the surface of that scene, but puts us in the heart of it.    Kathlyn is my wife’s childhood friend. Kathlyn was born in the Bay Area and makes her living as a nurse. Her husband Tudor, is also a native of San Francisco. He manages a division of the Bay Area transit system and is a former amateur boxer. Together they are parents to two amazing girls, which you’ll hear in the background in the first part of this conversation.   We all grew up around each other throughout our teens, on parallel paths, orbiting in and around the same circles. So in a way, I can say that I’ve known these people for most of my life. In my youth, I’d see them around the same parties, which around Daly City was held in house garages, community church halls, and the several parks peppered throughout the city.    An interesting thing to mention, which gives a bit of context to some of the stories in this podcast. The way I came to know Tudor was through one of my good friend's older brother. I guess the best way to describe it would be like in the movie Dazed and Confused. In the movie, there were two groups of boys - Ben Affleck and the older ruffian kids. The older kids chased around the younger, innocent kids - eighth-graders making their way into high school. That was the age gap between us. We were the younger kids looking out for the older kids.   By no means were Tudor and his friends during that time known as bullies, but they were people you didn’t mess around with, or give any funny looks. They were to be respected, and in that regard, you get respect back, and there wouldn’t be any problems. So it was interesting at first when I found out that he and Kathlyn got together about 20 years ago. And throughout these years I’ve seen him, morph into a kind, caring, generous, respected human being, completely opposite of all the misconceptions I had of him and his friends as a youth.   We bounce through plenty of fun topics in this episode, dissecting the social compulsions of our youth, the art of the Taco Bell Mexican Pizza, and paint a vivid picture of what Daly City used to look like as a city in the 80s and 90s. Tudor also shares some fascinating stories about his life in the Bboy scene and what it takes to win in a breakdancing battle. We also get into the mobile DJ scene, and som of his experiences growing up around a gang.   So while many know the stories about the music and culture that came out of the era of the late 80s and 90s in Daly City, we are also a part of the stories within that story. And what’s offered here are just small vignettes of what a lot of Filipino youth of that era are beginning to reflect on and unpack.   Notes | Mentions:   Big Bottom Market, Guerneville, CA | BiscuitsPizza and PipesHow the pandemic changed celebrationsGod Parenting instructions for FilipinosFitness USADaly City, CA Good GuysCircuit CityMontgomery wardPaylessStreet fighter II fightsTaco BellMexican pizzaBest fried chicken in the bayPiercing PagodaSerramonteBay Area dancingFiesta Islands1990s breakdancing sceneHow to C-WalkSpintronixConcrete RockersBay Area Mobile Dj SceneDJ Scotty FoxRhythm and MotionChris the RebelKMELDj Clee (Clinton Lee)How to win a bboy battleBangin in Little RockJumped in to GangsSlangin
QCP #006 | Personal Essay | Does Eye Contact Matter Anymore?
23-12-2021
QCP #006 | Personal Essay | Does Eye Contact Matter Anymore?
What is the purpose of life?   The Egg, a flash fiction story written by Andy Weir, offers a profound perspective on this age old question. If there is anything that can describe what The Quake City Portal is about, it can be found in this episode, and in stories just like The Egg.   I was deeply moved by this piece, seeing it first in video form, and then reading the story here. With so many aspects of life that fuel a divide among individuals, we need to share more stories that bring people together.   This is an essay I wrote inspired by this story, recorded in podcast form. The Egg sparked a deep dive into eye contact, my difficulties with it at times, and throughout my life. I wanted to answer the question I had - why is it (sometimes) hard to make eye contact?   Original music and score produced by The Quake City Portal.   Please read the story and accompanying video via the links below:   The Egg, by Andy Weir   The Egg, animated short story | Written by Andy Weir, Animations by Kurzgesagt - In a Nutshell       Notes | Mentions:   Virtue, AristotleThe Four Noble Truths, BuddhismFriedrich Nietzsche | The Will to PowerAs seen “emblazoned on the bodies of butterflies, birds, snakes, fish and peacocks, whose eye-shaped patterns are thought to mimic the eyes of predators and thus induce an avoidance response” (Grumet, 1983). REM Sleep“override all other information should any of it conflict with the visual sense” (Freese, 1977)Ivan RamenHermann Hesse | DemianEmojisChris Voss | Never Split the DifferenceMatt Ridley | The Rational OptimistCarl JungPsychedelics