What's The Matter With Me? Podcast

John Hoppin

Hey everybody my name is John, I’m 44, disabled wheelchair user, husband, parent, community radio DJ, small business owner, podcaster with multiple sclerosis and trigeminal neuralgia. I made the What’s The Matter With Me? podcast to share what I’m going through. read less
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Episodes

Drugged Out
26-03-2024
Drugged Out
In "Drugged Out," a short episode featuring wine delivery, toilet paper shortage and trigeminal neuralgia pain medication. Long Time Subscribers get the selfie for as long as we all shall live. It's a lifetime subscription Green fluid Cuts in my hands have been getting infected and filling with green goop In Our Cups We got the wine delivery, man, and the wine deliveryman was in his 20s, maybe his mid-20s, and he was really upset about global warming. "Things aren't l really pleasant anymore," he said. I felt for him. "I feel for you," I said Toilet Paper Shortage We still have a case of Bulgarian toilet paper that has no perforations and ripping it feels like tearing up someone's college application, or well-qualified resume printed out on nice paper. Remember back in 2020, when there wasn't toilet paper? We bought a case of Bulgarian toilet paper and it was like riving a sheet of Bristol board to rip a sheet off. There were no perforations, it was 80% normal size so it didn't fit on the roll, Thing I Know I watched the "Taylor Swift: Eras" movie with Koko, so I know about Taylor Swift now. Not sure what, but I know it. The movie is long, but not as long as "Killers of the Flower Moon." She gets into slang patterns thata made me uncomfortable. To get it going, I had to figure out my Disney Plus login credentials, and that, in itself, is a big bonus. Electric Wire Buried In Flesh I'm drugged out! I experienced severe face pain once before bedtime, and then many times (a couple dozen?) after 4am. I cut out coffee, ibuprofen and started going up on my medicine that day, settling on twice of my usual dosage. That was too much, and I became extremely drowsy and experienced visual, balance and energy side affects. Eventually I settled around 175% of my usual dose, which. for the moment, is keeping the pain away and limiting the worst side effects. Surgery is next week, my third RF rhizotomy. I knew this treatment could recur and that it was not necessarily permanent. Let's hope the third time's the charm. 00:00:00 - Intro 00:00:22 - Shout outs 00:01:08 - Jingle 00:02:00 - "Taylor Swift: Eras" movie review 00:02:13 - Bulgarian toilet paper 00:04:42 - Trigeminal neuralgia returns 00:07:45 - Outro 00:08:44 - Wine delivery
Spring Concert
19-03-2024
Spring Concert
In "Spring Concert," an incidental return to Dry Marchuary, a chapbook's worth of poetry and the school's Spring Concert. From chaos comes order One way to enjoy Hoppin Hot Sauce is "On Pasta". In the midst of near-total chaos, small rituals ground us, nourishing both body and soul. "On Pasta" at HoppinHotSauce.com Shout outs Shout outs to schwabino kickin fatal aikido kung fu karate they bout to find your body you better ask somebody mymedia designer.com tell a friend to tell a friend about my media designer See for yourself Spring Concert Selfie My hair is long as it's been since 2009! See for yourself above. Subscribers get the selfie e-mailed to them, they don't even have to do anything, just lay there. It's an NFT, it's collectible, it's a blockchain. Blockchain sounds like a necklace to me Lost Weekend Here I Come The wine delivery is coming tomorrow. In the meantime, we've been back to "One Or Two Beers Dry January-February-Marchuary" mode, just for the past few days. Long live one or two beers Dry January To go in your chaps Hippie chapbooks A chapbook is a small publication of up to about 40 pages, sometimes bound with a saddle stitch. "Chapbook," Wikipedia I collected what poetry I have written since I moved here in 2021. It's over 45 pages, and Wikipedia says it's enough to make a chapbook. Let my children play music Once upon a time in the auditorium I went to the San Leandro Unified School District Spring Concert in my wheelchair, to see my son play trumpet in the spring concert. Once upon a time in the auditorium Chapter List 00:00:00 - Intro 00:02:47 - From chaos comes order 00:03:21 - Shout outs 00:04:10 - Long Hair 00:05:23 - Wine delivery 00:05:58 - Poetry Collection 00:06:57 - Chapbook 00:09:04 - Writing in Google Keep 00:09:43 - Spring Concert 00:14:27 - Attending The Concert
I Drove
12-03-2024
I Drove
In “I Drove,” getting reacquainted with driving, where did kale come from and borscht out the wazoo. Iconic trio At Breakfast is a great time to have Hoppin Hot Sauce. Just like the iconic trios of Larry, Curly, and Moe, or black, white, and grey, or even the Roman numerals I, II and III, eggs, English muffins and Hoppin Hot Sauce form an unforgettable trio that’s sure to become a favorite in your kitchen. Shout outs Shout out to Jersey Girl and Max LevelWe're going to broadcast a game show in MayI'll be the score No matter what Selfie Selfie or no selfie the email is going out - grab it while you are still living, go to whatsthematterwithme.org and click subscribe I drove Two lane blacktop I drove my van. First, around the block. Next, to the library, where I saw men with nowhere else to go walking around the library grounds in the rain an hour before opening. Finally, I drove to Oakland, up 580 and to Piedmont Avenue, to Cato's Ale House. I photographed it from my parking space and texted it to my buddy, lamenting that it was too early for beer. He replied, "It's never too early for beer." It's good to have friends. Shout out to Matt. Turning around, I drove back home. Where did kale come from? According to the "kale" page of Wikipedia\, Kale came to America in the 19th century from Croatia, brought by USDA botanist David Fairchild, who did not eat it, who detested cabbages of all sorts. Borscht We have a freezer full of borscht. Chock full of borscht, we have borscht coming out the wazoo. My aunt and uncle were in town and we had them over for lunch. We ate borscht. Two lane blacktop Chapter List 00:00:00 - Intro 00:00:42 - At Breakfast 00:01:55 - Shout outs 00:02:56 - Selfie or no selfie 00:03:20 - I drove my car 00:04:38 - Fear of driving 00:05:41 - Men with nowhere else to go 00:08:16 - Slash at the Oscars \"I\'m Just Ken\" 00:09:41 - Where did kale come from? 00:12:11 - Dax Pierson interview upcoming 00:13:07 - Borscht 00:13:35 - Aunt and Uncle ate borscht 00:14:09 - Losing 00:14:34 - Outro
Buying A Used Wheelchair
05-03-2024
Buying A Used Wheelchair
In "Buying A Used Wheelchair," breaking my wheelchair and buying a new one on Craigslist, more record shopping, cooking borscht and getting accepted for publication. Every week we order pizza from the place in town. On the day after, for lunch I eat cold pizza with Hoppin Hot Sauce on it.(Hoppin Hot Sauce jingle) Those who say don't know & who know don't say Buying a used wheelchair selfie Subscribers get the selfie and the show notes e mailed to them, and I don't know what they do with them Record shopping I went record shopping at Amoeba and it turned out to be a pretty good score: Something Is Wrong (Vintage Recordings From East Africa) Fiona Apple, "Tidal" Black Top Blues-a-rama, Volume 2 Live at Tipitina's, New Orleans J Dilla, "Donuts" The record store person gave me "the nod" Terminal Event I broke the arm off of my wheelchair, with a bang. The manufacturer was out of stock, but I needed to find a replacement. I got on my computer and I searched eBay and sfbay.craigslist.org. craigslist came through for me Cooking While Disabled We made borscht. For the second year in a row, we used this Serious Eats recipe for Hot Ukrainian Borscht (With Beets, Beef, Pork, and More) Accepted After an uninterrupted months-long streak of many rejections, a few different editors wrote me to let me know that my writing was accepted. All in all, a piece of microfiction (in this case, a story of exactly 50 words) and two poems. It's very exciting to turn the corner on this project and move from submission to publication. Chapter List 00:00:00 - Intro 00:05:04 - Subscribers get the selfie 00:06:01 - Record shopping 00:13:36 - Terminal event 00:21:08 - Borscht 00:27:58 - P.T. 00:29:30 - Outro
Swift Correction
27-02-2024
Swift Correction
In "Swift Correction," Taylor Swift wrote all the songs, hoping everything's okay, and a sprained knee. But first, I'm programming robots to do my bidding! I can feel it-- success is near at hand. Automaton I I spent all day working on an automation to send posts created on the Hoppin Hot Sauce blog out to the mailing list automatically. Automations help multiply my actions which is important so I can conserve energy and avoid fatigue that comes with MS. Hopefully, I can stay in better touch with the hot sauce audience. Automaton II Swift Correction selfie Previously, another automation I made sends new episodes to our What's The Matter With Me? Podcast mailing list. Subscribe today. Subscribers get the selfie along with show notes. Cool thing Hoppin Hot Sauce is a disabled owned & operated business Shoppers at our Amazon store support disabled-owned business Hope everything's okay About the time when we were driving and we saw two fire trucks and an ambulance. My wife said. "I hope everything's okay." To which I replied, "Clearly, it isn't." Correction: Taylor Swift wrote all the songs Correction: Taylor Swift wrote all the songs My wife texted: "The standard edition of 1989 (Taylor's Version) comprises 21 tracks: re-recordings of the 13 songs from the standard edition of 1989, re-recordings of the three bonus tracks from the original deluxe edition, and five previously unreleased "From the Vault" songs that were written for the 2014 album but excluded from the final track list. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/1989_(album) I don't think the Taylor's version are covers." Of course, she was right. I tried to explain it in the episode, but it's really very complicated. Path of pain The path of pain began when I sprained my knee. Unfortunately, I fell in my bathroom, and bent it the wrong way. After that, I was leaning heavily on my cane, which caused soreness in my left pectoral area. The pain traveled from there down my arm, stopping in my bicep, forearm, wrist and hand. It was painful, like sitting cross-legged but the heel goes outward instead of inward. The bruise was on the inside of my knee. Recovery proceeds, slowly, haltingly; I'm trying to stay off of it as much as I can. Bueller... Bueller... I'm practicing for the CBEST California substitute teacher exam. Correction: Taylor Swift wrote all the songs Chapter List 00:00:00 - Intro 00:01:43 - Subscribe to get the selfie 00:02:27 - Taking the selfie 00:03:18 - I created some automatons 00:06:22 - Conserving energy 00:07:06 - Hoppin Hot Sauce Jingle 00:07:24 - Hope everything\'s OK 00:08:49 - Taylor Swift Correction 00:14:31 - It happens every night 00:18:28 - The Path Of Pain 00:19:26 - Substitute teacher exam 00:21:43 - Outro Taylor SwiftAutomatonHoppin Hot SauceMS (Multiple Sclerosis)Trigeminal NeuralgiaPodcastAutomationPain ManagementDisabilitySubstitute Teacher Exam (CBEST)
Wheelchair Dig
20-02-2024
Wheelchair Dig
In "Wheelchair Dig," a dinner party, shout outs and a family trip to the record store. Amidst discussions on music finds, including Eminem and Taylor Swift covers, touching on the disappearance of People's Park, radio's outreach to marginalized communities, and the place of 'inspirational' content in disability culture. Canvas for hot sauce We had our neighbors over for dinner last night and we made pulled pork sandwiches and coleslaw. The kind of thing just perfect for hot sauce. All-KFJC Shouts Shout out to the sandman who wrote in for a fresh fish recommendation in the South Bay. So I gave up all my spots to him? Shout out to Jersey girl and Max level There's only one way Subscribe and get the selfie Wheelchair dig https://www.flickr.com/photos/caltex98/46968846481/ Amoeba Records Berkeley Went record shopping at Amoeba in my wheelchair with the family Finds https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X3_SPhBqG2w I found a 3cd set of Codona on ECM used / don cherry nana vasconcelos and collin wallcott. It's proto-'world music' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z5KiSu1-2ko my son got eminem's "Marshall Mathers 2". he is having emotional problems, so I see why he is connecting with this. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2JgvVfOfoWI My wife and my daughter went in on the taylor swift covers cd taylor's version - electropop, powerful music - the frequencies are on blast, it peels your eyelids back and curls your eyelashes. plenty rizz, more drip than expected, pretty obvious why she's a spectacular pop star people's park is gone - three cops guarding the shipping containers blockading it - bad vibes Inspiration to who? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8K9Gg164Bsw Is There A Healthy Place For ‘Inspirational’ In Disability Culture? Andrew Pulrang Disabled people have complicated relationships with a lot of words. But the one word other than “disability” itself disabled people feel most intensely about may be the word “inspirational.” Andrew Pulrang Broadcast Digging in the crates The radio and other broadcast media is egalitarian in the way it approaches disabled people and unpopular people. The voice on the radio is the companion that they have. Homeless people, weirdos, prisoners, anyone who tunes in can listen On that note, email me Digging in the crates Chapter List 00:00:00 - Intro 00:01:01 - We had our neighbors over 00:01:30 - Hoppin Hot Sauce Jingle 00:02:03 - Shout outs 00:02:10 - south bay fresh fish market recommendations 00:03:35 - Jersey girl and Max level 00:04:23 - subscribe and get the selfie 00:05:31 - record shopping at amoeba Berkeley with the family in my wheelchair 00:08:00 - i found codona trilogy on ecm 3cd set used 00:10:54 - my son got eminem 00:13:25 - taylor swift taylor\'s version cd 00:18:11 - people\'s park is gone 00:20:20 - being inspiring is a drag 00:24:25 - voice is on the radio 00:25:46 - outro People's ParkBerkeleyDisability cultureInspirationalAndrew AngElla YoungRadio broadcastingAmoeba Berkeley (record store)Hoppin Hot SauceRecord shoppingMultiple sclerosisTrigeminal neuralgiaEminemTaylor SwiftJazzHip hop
The Music Episode
13-02-2024
The Music Episode
In "The Music Episode:" "Let's Paint TV," Ludacris color story meme, and keeping the kids in their rooms by tuning in to Day Of Noise on KZSU. When life gives you shoes.. make shoeanade The new shoes that I got in the last episode are working out. They're made by a company called Drew I swear it's true Semi-transparent guitarist playing a record store "in store" gig with red paint scrawled all over its face This is the music episode Spicy Roasted Pistachio Nuts The Spicy Roasted Pistachios with Hoppin Hot Sauce Extra Hot came out but there was one problem - i couldn't stop eating them - we'll eat them at the Super Bowl, if they last that long I'm writing an email blast about them, and I made some cool collages, like this one, of the guy who coined the term 'umami' Umami means "delicious taste." in Japanese. The Struggle Is Real If Sisyphus was alive today, he could have a podcast about going up the hill and rolling the boulder over and AI would say it was a multi-faceted discourse. Chairpiphany It helps when I search for stuff using my wheelchair not walking around. BC then I actually look around, instead of focusing on walking, trying not to fall, as usual. Berkeley Rock Stars https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CnQ8N1KacJc I got a fragment of The time of your life Green Day song stuck in my head, but only the title, and even that I got wrong. Not Like The Others If you're like, "This certainly isn’t like another podcast," make sure to subscribe to get the selfie. Here Be The River Of Pain Changes in the weather: the atmospheric river pointed at California is screwing with my face a bit. Stinging me, stabbing me - out of nowhere. Ultimately Very Listenable https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CFEY7Aw7S7s&t=1848s Thiis is from "Let's Paint TV," hosted by the Los Angeles artist John Kilduff. Once the novelty of his multidisciplinary multitasking wore off, which, I admit, took a while, I found it soothing and ultimately very listenable. He has an etsy store, with lots of items for sale at a very reasonable prices considering the obvious talent involved. For real - I mean, could you do this? I couldn't, and I appreciate him for what he has done. Appealing Color Story Hip Hop Rap Ludacris Meme I created the Ludacris meme "Mauve birch" My Children Were On Lockdown It was the day of noise on KZSU. The 24-hour live marathon of noise and experimental sounds kept the kids out of the main room of the house, in their rooms with the doors firmly shut, pretty much all day. Keeping It Going On the day after Day Of Noise, my daughter had a playdate. While it was going on, I put on Escalo Frio by Otto Von Shirach which was more of the same. Escalo frio means shiver in Spanish. The record features an appearance by Matmos. Before putting it on I told my wife it was dance music and I admit, that was misleading. No Test Drive Abilities expo isn't happening in the bay area this year but it is happening in Los Angeles in mid March. I can get another of the same wheelchair that I already have, however I would like to have a chance to look at the options in a hands-on way. The Music Episode Selfie The Music Episode Selfie One More Time This is the music episode. Semi-transparent guitarist playing a record store "in store" gig with red paint scrawled all over its face Chapter List 00:00:00 - Funeral song 00:00:52 - ATMOSPhERIC RIVER TRIGEMINAL NEURALGIA 00:01:13 - New Drew Shoes 00:03:05 - This is the music episode 00:03:59 - Ikeda who coined the term \'umami\' 00:05:13 - HOPPIN HOT SAUCE jingle 00:05:14 - If Sisyphus was alive today 00:05:44 - Search by wheelchair 00:06:54 - \"Good Riddance\" Green Day 00:08:05 - Get the selfie 00:10:10 - John Kilduff / Let\'s Paint TV 00:13:44 - Ludacris meme \"Mauve birch\" 00:14:44 - KZSU Day Of Noise 2024
New Shoes 2KXXIV
06-02-2024
New Shoes 2KXXIV
SEASON 8 EPISODE 4"NEW SHOES 2KXXIV" In “NEW SHOES 2KXXIV,” I get new shoes for the first time in years, piece together a classy color scheme of colors with gross-sounding names and austerity in the UK impacts people with disabilities. Through this episode, I invite you to join me in unraveling the complexities of this multifaceted experience. Hoppin Hot Sauce Toasted Pistachios 1 cup pistachios, 2 teaspoon whole cumin seed, 1 teaspoon aji-no-moto, 1 Tablespoon Hoppin Hot Sauce, salt, olive oil. Stir together and lay out on a baking sheet lined with a silicone or parchment baking sheet. Place in a 350 degree oven for 3 to 4 minutes. Stir, and return to the oven for 3 or 4 minutes, until the cumin is fragraant. Let them cool for a few hours. Once I got going, I was unable to stop eating them even for a sip of beer. Shout outs Shout out to Matt who was into the blood episode - we watched the playoffs with our families Geographical Shout outs Shout outs to the cities, towns and countries that listen to this podcast Green Kitchens Sicken Millions Color scheme made up of Gross sounding colors like taupe and puce Mauve birch get out the way Don't Pull The Trigger On A Face Tattoo Reminder to the listeners as an alternative to getting the facial tattoo is to subscribe to the newsletter If I were ever to have an advertiser maybe a good one would be tattoo removal Cursing For Kids Swearing nursery rhymes like Little Miss muffet sat on her motherfucking tuppet eating her curds and way shit Stompin' in my Drew Force V I got new shoes - at walk rite for life who set me up with a custom fit, which I need to fit my AFO inside Less than total teetotaling "one or two beers half-january" is finally over Putting us all together Due to budget shortfalls, city councils in the United Kingdom are considering cutting assisted living programs and forcing disabled people to move into state-run facilities. If you want a symbol of this country’s shredded safety net, look no further than Mark in Bristol. For the past 30 years Mark, who has cerebral palsy, has lived in his accessible bungalow with the support of personal assistants. That care package has enabled the 58-year-old to build a life at the heart of his community: from being a governor at the local school and training as a social worker, to holding a season ticket for his beloved Bristol City football club, “It’s more despair than joy,” he smiles. From next week, that life could start to disappear. As the latest local authority to strain under growing social care costs and dwindling resources – the city faces a budget hole of £17m next year, expected to rise to £32m in the years to come – Bristol council is proposing a “cost-effective” solution: if a disabled person’s in-home care is not considered “best value”, they could be told to live in a care home instead. It is the stuff of a domestic horror movie: a bureaucrat deems your life too expensive, and you’re forced to pack your bags and spend the rest of your days in an institution. Frances Ryan, "Think of this: a plan to ‘warehouse’ disabled people. What kind of nation is Britain becoming?" Thu 25 Jan 2024 Laughing Fools We had our friends over to watch the football game I undercooked the beans again but it didn't matter, we had a good time Afterwards, my wife and I laughed so much at bedtime, being goofy "New Shoes 2KXXIV" Selfie Chapter list Chapter List 00:00:00 - Intro 00:00:48 - Subscribe to get the selfie 00:01:20 - Young Albert Einstein vs. old Albert Einstein 00:03:32 - Hoppin Hot Sauce Jingle 00:03:51 - Hoppin Hot Sauce toasted pistachios recipe 00:06:11 - Shout outs 00:07:06 - Geographical shout outs 00:09:44 - A gross-sounding color scheme 00:10:51 - Alternative to the facial tattoo 00:11:45 - If I had an advertiser
Arte Povera
30-01-2024
Arte Povera
In "Arte Povera," Aaron "Wheelz" Fotheringham hits the skatepark in his WCMX wheelchair, we learn how to pronounce 'arte povera' and MS plays third wheel. Shout out Shout out to Jersey Girl who wrote in to let me know she was a diggin' on the new theme song @aaronwheelz WCMX GETTIN' RAD https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YEXsDdhgX-s Aaron "Wheelz" Fotheringham WCMX disabled extreme wheelchair at the skate park. Watching his videos blew my mind and made me proud Arte Povera Selfie Put the selfie in and remind listeners to subscribe When was the height of the sound effects- do you remember the sound effects? Contact me and I will give you an incredible shoutout that warps time and space due to its epicness Famous Quotations: Edison & Rakim When you have explored all possibilities, remember this - you haven't. Thomas Edison https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Y1Emb7Jyks Don't sweat the technique Cats are big We can always make a social media profile for our pet cat. people love cats! Video art, eh? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PQddRHtt0Ts The video that comes up when you search "Arte povera pronunciation" is like a work in itself Door Update The ancient giant door of opportunity is wide open, with light shining through Stitches/Staple Update I don't have any stitches or staples in my head or anywhere else in my body at the time of this recording The stitches fell out in the shower. Just the end of them. They were brown Three's Company Everyone who is in a relationship with me is also in a relationship with multiple sclerosis, including my friends and family #1: Ask before you help United Spinal Association disability etiquette guide was a concise read that offers interesting perspective on how to treat disabled people respectfully Acceptance acceptance of gravity like acceptance last time - gravity is a constant force Time's up See you next week! Don't forget to contact me for a Shout Out in the next episode While you're there, subscribe to get new episode emails Chapter List 00:00:01 - Intro 00:00:46 - Shout outs 00:01:17 - disabled inspiration: Aaron Fotheringham WCMX rider 00:05:00 - selfie 00:05:28 - to get the full experience, you must subscribe to whats the matter with me? 00:05:39 - do you remember the sound effects? 00:06:24 - kid\'s baseball league debacles 00:08:23 - disabled inspiration: remembering pitcher Jim Abbott 00:09:12 - Quote: Thomas Edison 00:10:45 - Quote: Eric B. & Rakim 00:11:39 - People Love Cats 00:11:54 - arte povera Pronunciation Video 00:14:45 - Ancient Giant Door of Opportunity 00:15:34 - no stitches or staples 00:16:38 - Everyone who is in a relationship with me 00:19:09 - Disability Etiquette Guide 00:22:51 - Outro
Ancient Cattle Herders
23-01-2024
Ancient Cattle Herders
In "Ancient Cattle Herders," scientists solve a genetic mystery about multiple sclerosis, Christina Applegate goes on the Emmys, and we read about how acceptance is key. Caused by people with horses Surely a big deal with far-reaching implications Scientists crack mystery of how MS gene spread 10th January 2024, 08:09 PSTShare By Philippa RoxbyHealth reporter An international team of scientists say they have unearthed the answer in the DNA of ancient teeth and bones. The genes which protected our ancestors from animal diseases now raise the risk of multiple sclerosis (MS). The researchers call their discovery "a quantum leap" in understanding the evolution of the disease. And they say it could change opinions on what causes MS, and have an impact on the way it is treated. https://bbc.com/news/health-67917294 Surely a big deal with far-reaching implications, but I'm not 100% sure what they are. Something to do with ancient cattle herders, beasts and DNA helixes like you see above. Remember Reminder to put the selfie in and don't forget it like last time, remind listeners to subscribe ancient cattle herders selfie 90s are back: E-Mail I sent an “it's good to start the season” email Email is big bc the 90s are back Emmy TV Moment Christina Applegate on the Emmys was a huge moment that increased MS consciousness Having That Falling Feeling Inside Fell in the house Wednesday at 10:45am. my wife was here. I bled a little from one of the stitches, but didn't open up and stopped pretty quick when I iced it so I didn't go to the ER but I think this still counts as a fall If Christina Applegate did it, we would say, "she fell." If it's the last thing I ever do Fellow KFJC DJs reach out to me to take part in stuff, but I can barely make it around my house Moving to San Leandro added 9 minutes and a bridge to what had been a straight shot from east san jose I'm not walking very well I would be there if I could be I need to figure out my wheelchair transport situation Like a helicopter https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0xdVXV8_yHE The wall blew off on that 737 Max 9 Come up off that We got permits for solar last year but we've kind of been dragging our feet with the sales people and this year they want to take our money and now I'm getting calls from the operations department Not a word No one agrees to publish my poetry and to an extent that shouldn't be a surprise Acceptance is key Blog post about disability and acceptance that I thought added valuable perspective to my situation @johnhoppin https://twitter.com/johnhoppin/status/1742292361139621970 Chapters 00:00:01 - Intro 00:01:11 - Hoppin Hot Sauce Jingle 00:01:25 - Ancient cattle herders brought MS genes 00:05:59 - Selfie 00:07:14 - “it\'s good to start a season” email 00:08:31 - Christina Applegate on the Emmys 00:14:29 - Fell in the house 00:15:34 - Stuck in the house 00:17:48 - The wall blew off on that 737 Max 9 00:18:58 - I\'m getting calls from the operations department 00:20:13 - Poetry publication 00:20:52 - Accepting disability blog post 00:24:09 - twitter bon jovi 00:24:38 - Outro
New Pie Cutter
16-01-2024
New Pie Cutter
Welcome to the Season 8 Premiere, "New Pie Cutter" In this episode, "New Pie Cutter" which is a kind of smorgasbord episode, we celebrate the new year, the new season, the new theme song. People get ready, the new episode is here and ready for liftoff. Shout outs s Shout out to the sandman Contact me on the contact form to get a shout out Maybe the best shout out you'll ever have, or that anyone'll ever have New Pie Cutter To avoid a repeat of this year's thanksgiving gorefest, I ordered a metal pie cutter on ebay, with a stainless steel blade and a silver handle - it's here and it's beautiful and sturdy Dinner a la GoGo GoGo has limitations as a dating service an awkward seating arrangement at least they got a name change TV burial bought a big new tv bc mine crapped out after 15 years What's causing it Dad butt dialed me again and he was like well. what happens is,I keep my phone in my back pocket, i think i butt dialed you Maxims I will try to eat cheese no matter how old it is just to see A pint is a pound the world around Correct Technique correct and incorrect swallowing techniques Swallow while staring at your sternum I learned it from Koko Wheelchair Fake News With my son parts on my wheelchair broke in airline baggage "jazzy passport is discontinued" and other lies the wheelchair salesman told me Notes making memes yogurt marinade Mix 1 cup yogurt, 2 tsp Hoppin Hot Sauce, and 1.5 tsp salt Pour over 8 boneless chicken thighs and rest for at least four and up to twentyfour hours Grill and eat over rice with some white sauce and extra hot sauce to taste AI Guy I posted a picture of myself that was made by AI and I put it as my story and a lot of people haven't heard from in a long time contacted me and maybe didn't realize the picture was not of me but it was a hallucination by AI Admission the triage nurse at the hospital asked me if i used to be a wrestler Chapters 00:02:37 - shoutouts 00:03:02 - I ordered a metal pie cutter on ebay 00:04:43 - GoGo has limitations as a dating service 00:07:55 - bought a tv bc mine crapped out after 15 yr 00:09:33 - Dad butt dialed me again and he was like well. what happens is,I keep my phone in my back pocket, i think i butt dialed you 00:10:01 - I will try to eat cheese no matter how old it is just to see 00:10:25 - A pint is a pound the world around 00:12:38 - Swallowing while staring at your sternum 00:15:53 - parts on my wheelchair broke in airline baggage 00:21:22 - jazzy passport is discontinued (and other lies the salesman told me) 00:21:58 - maxims 00:22:19 - Hoppin Hot Sauce Jingle 00:22:28 - cooking yogurt chicken (with recipe) 00:23:27 - I posted a picture of myself that was made by AI 00:24:35 - i\'ve been bleeding all from my head 00:25:43 - the triage nurse at the hospital asked me if i used to be a wrestler 00:28:57 - pus head experience / pus head the artist
Can You Eat Blood?
06-12-2023
Can You Eat Blood?
Welcome to "Can You Eat Blood?" the first episode after a break for a few weeks. I had trigeminal neuralgia face pain, so I took a a couple of weeks off. I think AI would say that these are bunch of unrelated thoughts. Shout-outs Shout out to the poet Joe Imwalle who called me to thank me for sending a link to his linktree while at the same time insinuating (correctly or not) that almost no one listens to my podcast. Joe played guitar in my high school band and now he's a published poet Shout out to Jeremiah Jahnson who gave us a shout out on KFJC, Saturday morning at 8:30 Shoutout to Hoppin Hot Sauce Gray room We went on a date at Yonsei Handrolls because the movie was too long to do otherwise What To Do When you have MS people are alwaays sending you scholarly articles like this one Caramelized shallots Chicken and pasta with caramelized shallots Thanksgiving Thanksgiving is for 14 this year Thanksgiving menu 5% salt I wrote the sauerkraut recipe for the school recipe book I can breathe again The espresso machine is back No Swap We're taking a break from the Booze-Only Yankee Swap this year Face on the fritz My face is bothering me due to the storms in the atmosphere Unfortunately I couldn't eat dinner with my family I had a scrambled egg on some rice so it's not like I'm dying Turkey Brain A week away and the Thanksgiving meal took over my mind I hope that I will be in the clear and so I can enjoy eating the meal and not be in fear I'm put in the meat order after trying to put it in back in October and they were like, "We'll do it next week." I'm either super early or coming in in the nick of time Cool hipster shoes The guy at the mobility shoe store asked me what kind of shoes I want and I said I was a hipster and I was cool and he said so you want dress shoes? Too Much Blood Jan hasn't been able to smell anything since he was 18 Nami drank Jan's blood But at least she didn't drink her piss Rejection Uniform Rejection of All writing submissions Disability studies Disability major at UCLA, first at a CA public university Mysterious note "Not just the bad stuff but the stuff I thought was really good" Washed up In a discussion of popular music John John told us Lady Gaga is washed up
God Of Thunder
07-11-2023
God Of Thunder
Welcome to What's The Matter With Me? Podcast Season 7. Episode 31, "God Of Thunder" The provided text seems to be a collection of various unrelated topics and updates, including shoutouts, a fundraiser for KFJC, an art acquisition by SFMOMA, the outcome of a baseball game, discussions about tucking in a t-shirt, an exploration of self-sufficiency, cooking, and conversations about toxic behavior with your son. ChatGPT Shout Outs Shoutouts to Rocky who dug the face tattoo idea Remember to use the drawer. Repeat: do not get a face tattoo, just a drawer full of scraps of paper with tattoo ideas written on them Shouts out to Max Level, standing at the edge of an inky black ocean holding a torch aloft Fundraiser is done 2023 KFJC Artist Shirt by Abigail Mae The KFJC fundraiser wrapped up bc we raised our operating budget for the coming year I donated to fundraiser @ KFJC and got the artist shirt (pictured above) Outsider Granted Entry JOSEPH ALEF, UNTITLED (JA 072), 2018, WORK ON PAPER, 22 X 30 INCHES via Creative Growth “SFMOMA’s investment marks a historic milestone in the contemporary art world,” said Ginger Shulick Porcella, Executive Director at Creative Growth Art Center. “It has been far too long that art institutions have ignored or underrecognized artists with disabilities. These talented creators can no longer be relegated to the category of ‘outsider artists’ as they firmly occupy the walls of museums worldwide.” SFMOMA SF MoMA makes histric acquisition of works from Creaative Growth/Creativity Explored/NIAD artists Rangers In 5 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lVbOQzgQKNk Diamondbacks lost the world series in five games to the Rangers As promised, I now have an Adolis Garcia Rangers jersey on order for my son Locked In With Deepak https://twitter.com/DeepakChopra/status/1704637821493919867 https://twitter.com/johnhoppin/status/1704637997222920243 Art School Job Prospects The person who named cymbals had a really cool job Do you think the hiring manager had other well qualified candidates? Keep your shoes on Tucking in a t-shirt in doesn't make it look any more formal If you are in my family, it makes you look like a pumpkin who thinks that a tucked in t-shirt is appropriate to wear to an event that it clearly is not Otherwise, you wouldn't tuck it in your silly t-shirt. Everybody needs directions Even Jesus Christ was not perfect God of Thunder I was the drummer from Def Leppard for Halloween Tight reviews: one reviewer was 5'9" 230 lbs "pretty sure my junk was showing" The tights fit, and I don't think my junk was showing Exploration in Self-sufficiency I took the kids to school by myself, picked them up, fed them, bath, and bedtime So my wife could go to San Diego on a work trip Green sauce for steak and vegetables What we're cooking now: grilled skirt steak with new potatoes & the real chimichurri Get every last drop https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FBtu3zhSD40&t=3s Judy woodruff & Dan Doctoroff on PBS Newshour Disability Reframed segment about squeezing every last bit out of life https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rXZUV2pX584 Washington Phillips on Dust-to-Digital Toxic messaging Talking to my son about the imagined bullies in middle school Trying to introduce the concept that making fun of a adisabled person is a toxic behavior, and as he gets older it's going to be important to see that clearly I am not at all sure that will help him
What’s Really Going On
21-10-2023
What’s Really Going On
In "What's Really Going On", John discusses the challenges he's been facing with his children, particularly their lack of cooperation He shares the stress and difficulty he experiences in trying to handle this situation, about the frustration of dealing with his son's behavior and the impact it has on their daily routines. He expresses his hope for a resolution and mentions that it's the 30th episode of his podcast this year. The episode discusses various topics, including John's family life, his children's behavior, his creative work with Hoppin Hot Sauce, and his experiences at a drum and bass show. Forming a rock band What I meant when I said that the fans of What's The Matter With Me? Podcast could change the course of history is that there's enough of them to form a rock band Coffee Annual Deep Cleaning We took the coffee machine in to get serviced Pile of Sticks All of my walking sticks are bent or otherwise unusable and I have them in a pile in the corner. I called in the warranty for one of them, and the replacement will come on Monday. Drum and bass I went to the drum and bass show at the Golden Gate Park Bandshell in my wheelchair Submission Kind of a milestone: I submitted poetry to ten publications. It's probably just the beginning. Hot Sauce Check Out Hoppin Hot Sauce On Amazon Making a new production of Hoppin Hot Sauce, getting everything ready What's really going on My son is driving me wild, and my daughter is watching and learning John discusses the challenges he's been facing with his children, their lack of cooperation in doing homework. He shares the stress and difficulty he experiences in trying to handle this situation, and the frustration of dealing with their behavior and the impact it has on their daily routines. He expresses his hope for resolution and a good night's sleep.
Multifaceted Discourse
12-10-2023
Multifaceted Discourse
In "Multifaceted Discourse" John discusses various topics and gives shout-outs. Here's a summary of the episode: The humorous and diverse "Multifaceted Discourse" delves into a smorgasbord of subjects, with the usual touch of self-deprecating charm. Being a jazz vocalist is a real thing We saw Kurt Elling & Charlie Hunter at Yoshi's, where they always have a great accessible seating setup It was cool to see a jazz vocalist headliner; they scat on every song Bow Down John dishes out shout-outs, paying homage to a variety of individuals, and even reflects on reaching a milestone 201st episode. Shout out to slartibartfast who loves the production Shout out to Jersey girl, who ideated the blind musicians kfjc special Shout out to Nathan Mary tibby & butters who wrote in to Let me know, this is my 201st episode Shout out to the sandman who said "it’s good and reassuring that AI cannot describe your show. Your show is about a specific human experience. I am glad that AI does not understand that yet, it means we still have time" Onus Removed? This could be a moment to rethink the A.D.A.'s framework. The Justice Department could take a larger role in enforcing the law, and Congress could amend the statute to give businesses a window to correct violations. Evelyn Clark We nearly take a thought-provoking turn reading The New York Times' article, "It’s Time to Rethink the Americans With Disabilities Act," shedding light on disability-related discussions. Always Protect Yourself A viewing of the film "Million Dollar Baby"; delving into thoughts on body limitations and the pursuit of perfection. As Lennard Davis himself has written, "what is universal in life, if there are universals, is the experience of the limitations of the body". Yet in films like Million Dollar Baby, and seemingly in every other ideological corner, we confront what Davis calls a "fantasy…of the perfection of the body and its activities". We cannot step into this ring alone. Jay Dolmage &William DeGenaro, Ph.D. Submission The episode then takes a poetic turn, inspired by Joe Imwalle. I've submitted my poetry around to some places and that's a lot of fun and disheartening, but I'm more having fun with it. Still need a lift Wheelchair lift issues are ongoing. Book Rundown Book reviews include "2021 Best Sports Writing" anthology, Brandon Taylor's "The Late Americans" and "Biography of a Phantom" by Mack McCormick. Letting AI sum up "Multifaceted Discourse" is a delightful blend of humor, insight, and intrigue.
A Range Of Subjects
03-10-2023
A Range Of Subjects
A Range Of Subjects We’re paid through the year In this podcast episode, John shares personal anecdotes, music interests, and his challenges due to multiple sclerosis. He discusses social experiences, urban planning, wheelchair tennis, and efforts to improve mobility. The episode offers insights into his life and diverse interests. My wife reminded me of the time I got nervous with her family and I said that jujubees give you "copious fecal matter" Music Rundown New adds: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iAI_0ncyo3M Gabor szabo bacchanal - 1969 psychedelic apocalypse world music guitar centric  Dad gave it to me https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=OLAK5uy_nZEvJap1jZ-Qr4n3iN6JyTHzJDIVcZerM Zum Vol 1 & 5: indie experimental playlist from George Chen https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ejrhm5hVzMY sick thoughts on total punk records This got me into the KBD scene - here is the Wikipedia page https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xSKR5Rpru7Q from The Odd Man Who Sings About Poop, Puke and Pee Tremor Control I'm deep diving into olivia tremor control https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1yFaHBPOLJI Will Cullen Hart has MS The collected works book, mostly olivia tremor control covers and related ephemera 'Jazz' alone will do Renaming jazz CD genres into just jazz from contemporary jazz, jazz fusion, hard bop, or whatever Not always social Being social is hard bc its hard to be social Baby's in the corner I went to my Mom's birthday and everyone stood around and it wasn't the right place to hang out I got out of there and went to a table in the corner of the room The party was crowded but nobody sat next to me and I received people like the pope. trying hard to recognize them after not seeing them for many years. It was ok. I chose a seat that was very close to the stage. 2.5 Ft/Sec Read a piece in the times about urban planning for senior citizens Stir Crazy hard to get a round trying not to go nuts Burning Man attendees got to go home, when will I get to leave Wheelchair Tennis Watched the wheelchair us open tennis, Spaargaren NED v Fernandez ARG Liberation CALLED the mobility people TO GET THE LIFT GOING We set an installation date for October 10 Choking on food Had one of John's friends for dinner and they ate seconds and thirds, then everything was gone and it was gratifying. Ground beef tomato pasta Then I coughed on some Watermelon covered with tajin. "This is normal", John told his friend. I guess it is. I felt bad for him. AI Cooking School AI Hoppin Hot Sauce food photographs are impressively strange Challenging Juju 1919 market warehouse party spot is still for sale 20 years later For the nth time
Stream Of Consciousness Narrative
05-09-2023
Stream Of Consciousness Narrative
Potty Mouth DJ Delving deeper into what AI says I already do, I present to you, "Stream Of Consciousness Narrative." The "What's The Matter With Me?" podcast is a stream-of-consciousness narrative where the host, John, shares updates and thoughts on various topics that are currently on his mind. In this episode, John talks about a range of subjects, including his recent visit to urgent care, his experience with physical limitations due to multiple sclerosis, and his creative work on fundraising ads for a local radio station. He also mentions listening to the "Iowa's Newsworthy Past" podcast, gives a shoutout to his friend George Chen, who runs a music distribution platform, and reflects on the nature of his podcast as a support mechanism. Throughout the episode, John's narrative style is reflective and personal, touching on both humorous and serious topics. Artificial intelligence I like that, "reflective and personal." I'm starting to think that AI really gets me. Enough claptrap, let's dive right in. Is it a population thing Oklahoma and North Dakota have the fewest listeners to this podcast. California and New York have the most. Quit/Nah I am thinking about ending the podcast, what do you think? Use the contact form on whatsthematterwithme.org. Scratch that, if things seem bad, I'm going to think they're worse. I'll take no action. Funky Worm https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_A-GEBF4fTU From Beyond The Grave Listening to the Kurt Vonnegut interview cd from the back of my wife's old crashed car, he discusses how making a play is like getting yourself a new family. Listening to it, I felt that it related to how volunteering at KFJC provided support at a time when I had changed my lifestyle. I had moved from Brooklyn, to East San Jose, and I was looking for a new scene. Thee Song Candidate Shout out to Rocky who wrote in saying she dug the new theme song candidate from last episode, "Goru." I admit that it was heavily influenced by if not completely derivative of The Body & OAA, but maybe that isn't a bad thing. In Between The Lines Of Age Having my doctors tell me that my leg is useless or that my hand is paralyzed reminds me of when my kids used to say, "You can't use your hand", and then I would put a piece of paper in it. And say, "what about this?" Listening without intention Iowa's Newsworthy Past is a podcast with about 200 episodes consisting of readings from pretty old Iowa newspapers. You can listen to it really hard or you can zone out and let time and space melt away. Acquiring Legitimacy George Chen's Zum Audio Vol 5 compilation was on bandcamp radio last week and that's a pretty big deal even for an accomplished polymath gadfly like George.
Last day of summer at the Jelly Belly factory
23-08-2023
Last day of summer at the Jelly Belly factory
Welcome to "Last day of summer at the Jelly Belly factory" on What's The Matter With Me? Podcast. I asked my artificial intelligence tool what this episode was about, and it summarized it thusly: The main idea of this episode is a stream of consciousness narrative where you share updates on various topics, including your experiences visiting a Jelly Belly factory, your interest in music, your thoughts on different sayings and maxims, an accident where you hit your head and had to get staples, and some personal reflections and anecdotes. The episode covers a range of topics and thoughts that are currently on your mind. Without further ado... Reggae bible study Have you been studying your reggae bible? I haven't, but on Dj Robert Rankin's Solid Foundation reggae show I heard the lyric, "The race is not for the swift, but who can endure." I googled it, and it's from the Bible, a riff on Ecclesiastes chapter 9, verse 11. The race is not to the swift, nor the battle to the strong, neither yet bread to the wise, nor yet riches to men of understanding, nor yet favour to men of skill; but time and chance happeneth to them all. Ecclesiastes 9.11 This could relate to people in wheelchairs, who aren't very fast, but who have the strength to endure what is happening to them. Hotter than rats in a sack The family went to Fairfield and Suisun City for the kids' last day of summer break. It was 98 degrees in Fairfield, but the Jelly Belly factory was climate-controlled. Afterwards, we went to Retroactive Records and Games in Suisun City. More Maxims Mean what you say and say what you mean.Those who say don't know, and those who know don't say.Smile now, cry later. Pile it up high They put me on a medication that causes drowsiness and I'm like add it to the pile. Thankfuilly, that was last week and now I'm off it. Meanwhile, I am working on reordering the shoes in my correct size, but its not exactly going smoothly. To top it off, my AFO brace is still broken and tough to walk in. Trying to get up, I fell and hit my head and cut myself. After some cajoling, I went to the ER and got four staples. I admit that I'm glad I did. Next week, I'll go in to the office and get them removed. New music adds Looking over the list, I can see that this week's music run-down is guaranteed to freak out the squares. Nine Inch Nails do soundtracks, Portishead stepped on a Lego, Gravy Train go up-market, and extreme hardcore vocal interplay - this week's music adds have a little bit of something for everybody. Don't let your life go silent. Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles: Mutant Mayhem (Original Score) by Trent Reznor & Atticus Ross Enemy of Love by The Body & OAA No Jack Swing by Brontez Purnell CHOKE! SPLIT by XGRIFOX This Week's Selfie
Iron Curtain
14-08-2023
Iron Curtain
Welcome to "Iron Curtain," a trip behind the enemy lines of the mind, contrasting the styles of my current dentist, The Cat, with my last dentist, The Iron Curtain. Peel back the layers of flayed gum tissue and see! To give you a hand, I asked artificial intelligence to find the funniest part: It's challenging to pinpoint a single "funniest" part, as humor is often subjective and can vary based on individual preferences. However, there are several moments that include lighthearted anecdotes, witty observations, and amusing descriptions. For instance, John's description of his neighbor, the retired police officer, and his interactions with people caught driving around is quite humorous. Additionally, his playful musings about the "Iron Curtain" dentist and the Ukrainian war, as well as his interactions with his dentist and the solid wheels for his wheelchair, also carry a humorous tone. Humor is often found in the unexpected and quirky details of everyday life that John narrates in his podcast. Sounds completely amazing, let's dive in! Caught in the act https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qPCmU9vPZyc Retired cop caught some people driving around. He subtly got their name and address and he's still taking their statement Shoe Fail I bought Billy shoes and they were too small - got to exchange New Kind Of Animal Got my teeth cleaned where they do it like cats instead of like the iron curtain. I wonder if she ever wanted to quit being a dentist in the states and move back to Ukraine and do her iron curtain work on Russian soldiers Live Ukrainian Death Match Accidentally head-butted the wall in the garage - abrasion. Fell on my stomach. Sinkrippers We got the pedestal sink in the bathroom anchored to the wall with a a piece of wood and my friend complimented me that my house looked nice My kingdom for a tube Popped my tire, and instead of getting a replacement, I got a new wheelset. I got solid wheels for my wheelchair at the medical supply store, where they said nobody uses tubes anymore. A Rare Success Last night for dinner grilled a 2# Rib steak, onions, cabernet - it came out as even a rare that I have ever cooked.
Security Shirt
07-08-2023
Security Shirt
Video podcasting In "Security Shirt," I'm experimenting with creating a video version of this podcast. With video, it's proof. I'm going to focus on trying to make movies, then seeing if I can integrate them into the podcast Shout outs Shout outs to Wylie Shout outs to the Sandman who wrote Jack Tar & I about a live Buddy Guy concert on TV yesterday Reframing Thinking back to "Hit My Head On The Bed," maybe I should get a bed frame with posts or other hardware on the bottom so I can hang on to that - because there isn't anything to grab on to at the lower end of the bed. Sao Ichikawa wins Akutagawa Prize Sao Ichikawa, the winner of the Akutagawa Prize, speaks at a news conference in Tokyo on July 19. (Takuya Isayama) “I wrote this novel thinking that it is a problem that there were few authors with disabilities,” she said. “I want everyone to think about why the first winner did not appear until 2023.” Security Shirt Movie https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4MbvV8EkB1g Security Shirt story - "a man is blocking the stairwell" AFO drama My AFO brace has come unglued again I'm falling a lot, getting bruises, and taking lots of ibuprofen Thor Raining Down Lightning Trigeminal neuralgia was like lightning coming through the clouds. The clouds came from the carbamazepam and gabapentin I was on at the time. But then the lightning of trigeminal neuralgia in electrical nerve disease was like being in an area where there are lightning storms. The lightning is pretty unpredictable and there are mostly clouds, but once in a while the lightning strikes or there can be a lightning storm that breaks out and there are many, many electrical strikes. It causes a lot of anxiety because of how unpredictable it is. And having gone through many many of those lightning storms, I am kind of traumatized. I am on the same medication today and under more or less the same clouds. But there is no lightning when there is any feeling at all it is very muted. But like I said I'm traumatized. I'm anxious and I'm fearful. I have to recognize that https://twitter.com/johnhoppin/status/1686781634555850752 Easier dressing Relaxed fit clothes fit my AFO easier but they are going top be a change for my wardrobe From the Corrections Desk Correction from my wife. We didn't use carvana that we use CarMax. The same one we use the last time Smoke Signals Burping after eating Taco Bell vegetables tastes like cigarettes I was about to tell this lady at National Mobility and Seating right when the guy told me I was at the wrong place and he was behind the window at first so I didn't see him My wife was relieved On The Beat I saw Kerry in the park at 8:30 a.m. trying to do what he can for as long as he can Frank Fat's I want to go to Sacramento for classic cocktails and chow mein Revenge Against All Odds Crippled Masters. One with no legs, the other no arms. Disabled self-representation in a martial arts film. An avant garde film. Ended with no falling action This Week's Selfie With my wheelchair