Behind the Black Curtain

What happens when your prayers go unanswered? What happens when you've been praying the same prayers for years and not only do they go unanswered but things seem to get worse? In this episode of Behind the Black Curtain, we explore the coexistence of chaos and order in our lives when our prayers go unanswered. Join me as I share my personal story of saying the same prayers for years, only to have things get worse. Despite this, I've learned that order has kept me safe and provided for, even in the midst of chaos.  I also talk about my new practice that's been helping me find solace in this season. If you're going through a season of chaos and confusion, this episode is for you. Tune in to discover the power of divine timing and find solace amidst unanswered prayers   ***Join our Sunday Reset email list for a weekly dose of empowerment and reflection. Start your week with words of encouragement, though-provoking messages, and the motivation to tackle what lies ahead. Subscribe Here!

In this episode titled Sleeping with the Enemy, I delve into the profound concept of toxic relationships. Join me as I explore he complexities of staying in harmful situations, when we know we should leave.  Through personal storytelling, I shed light on the importance of acknowledging the existence of a problem and the emotional turmoil that arises when contemplating whether to stay or let go. -@behindtheblackcurtainpodcast@gmail.com   All my resources: https://linktr.ee/pretttynikki

I was motivated to do this episode based on a comment I recently received on an old YouTube video where I shared some of my story of how I was able to move myself and children out of South Central LA into a suburban neighborhood in Texas. The comment I received broke my heart to know that another single mom is struggling and beginning to be discouraged from believing that things will change for her.   In this episode I open up more about what I experienced during my waiting season as well as the challenges my children and I faced even when the blessings came in. I pray this episode reaches whoever needs to hear this story as a word of encouragement during this time. If you're a single mom looking for a word of encouragement and needing someone to talk to please feel free to reach out to me. @behindtheblackcurtainpodcast@gmail.com All my resources: https://linktr.ee/pretttynikki

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"In this heartfelt and transformative episode of Behind the Black Curtain, Nikki] takes us on a personal journey of self-discovery, as she explores her religious upbringing, break free from ingrained beliefs, and embark on a quest for truth. From a childhood rooted in Seventh Day Adventism to the rebellion of teenage years, our host shares the challenges faced in questioning the existence of God within her own religious framework. Join us as we delve into their introspective exploration, navigating the complexities of faith and spirituality, and finding solace in the pages of a personal journal. Be inspired to question your own beliefs, forge your unique path, and embrace the beautifully intricate journey of self-discovery and spiritual fulfillment. Tune in for an episode that will ignite curiosity and inspire meaningful conversations."   Diamond Mindset Journal @pretttynikki

Feeling like your life is consistently going in a direction you didn't anticipate?  Is it divine alignment, or is your life simply out of order? Join me in this candid podcast episode as I share my own journey of deep introspection and questioning everything about life.  Prepare for some real talk as I dig into the revelations I had while recording this episode. If you're in a season of questioning and seeking clarity about your life's direction, this is a must-listen!    Stay Connected Here

In this  Season 2 premiere, join Nikki as she shares a powerful testimony of triumph from joblessness to a well-deserved job offer. Discover how divine guidance, personal growth, and resilience paved the path towards success. Gain practical insights and encouragement for navigating your own challenges. This episode is packed with inspiration, faith, and the reminder that even in the darkest times, divine intervention can lead to incredible transformation. Stay Connected!

In this season finale episode, Nikki dives deep into the concept of feminine energy and explains what it means to have wounded feminine energy. She offers tools and strategies for healing and reclaiming your sensuality, self-love, and emotional intelligence.    Join Nikki in this insightful episode as she covers:   - The meaning and traits of feminine energy  - How to identify wounded feminine energy  - The impact of wounded feminine energy on your life - Powerful tools and strategies for healing wounded feminine energy  - The benefits of reclaiming your sensuality, self-love, and emotional intelligence   This episode is perfect for anyone looking to embrace their feminine energy and unlock their true potential. Tune in to Behind the Black Curtain and start your journey towards healing and empowerment! --

Do you ever feel like God is moving people out of your life for no apparent reason? Or perhaps you're struggling to understand why a particular relationship doesn't seem to be working out no matter how hard you try?   In this episode, we'll explore the concept of when God begins to reveal and remove people out of our lives. We'll examine what this means, why it happens, and how we can navigate this challenging process with faith, clarity, and peace of mind. Together, we'll uncover the beauty and opportunities that lie beyond the pain of losing those familiar relationships, and discover why aligning ourselves with God's divine plan is the most rewarding decision we could ever make.   Stay Connected!

In this episode, we talk about why settling for less in lifestyle choices and romantic relationships is not an option. I discuss how pushing for more can lead to a happier, more fulfilling life. At the same time, acknowledging the challenges and potential pitfalls of stepping outside our comfort zones. By sharing practical tips and insights, I aim to inspire you to pursue your dreams while being aware of the potential risks and rewards that come with your choices. Join me in this conversation!   Sunday Reset Email List Stay Connected!

In this episode of Behind the Black Curtain, we delve into the complex mother-daughter relationship, examining its impact on a woman's life. With expert insights and researched facts, we explore practical ways to overcome negative patterns and heal from past wounds.  As a solo host, I share personal anecdotes and relatable stories, highlighting the importance of self-reflection and nurturing positive communication.  If you or someone you know has experienced the long-lasted effects of a strained mother-daughter relationship, this episode will offer practical and compassionate guidance towards breaking negative patterns and embracing a brighter future. So, tune in for a transformative conversation on "Breaking Cycles: Healing the Mother Wound."

In today's episode, we dive deep into the topic of the father-daughter relationship and its impact on women's lives. Research has shown that the relationship between fathers and daughters is one of the most critical relationships in a woman's life. It affects their self-esteem, confidence, and the way they form relationships with men.   In this episode, we talk about what father-daughter relationships should look like, and how the lack of a healthy relationship with one's father can lead to negative experiences later on in life. I share my own personal journey and experience with my father and how that affected my relationships with men.   We also discuss how to heal from past wounds, the importance of forgiveness, and the steps to take to build a healthy father-daughter relationship. This episode is packed with valuable insights, practical tips, and actionable steps to help you navigate this crucial relationship and build fulfilling relationships with others.   Contact Me: I.nicolerowland@gmail.com   Instagram   Youtube

In this episode, I open up about a recent heartbreak that ended up being a turning point in my life. I share the lessons I learned from that experience, including the importance of honoring myself and setting boundaries in relationships. I also talk about the steps I took for emotional and mental healing, such as seeking therapy, seeking God, and practicing self forgiveness, Through my journey, I discovered that heartbreak can be a catalyst for growth and positive change. If you're struggling with a painful breakup, this episode offers advice, insights, and inspiration for finding healing and growth after heartbreak.   Contact Me  I.nicolerowland@gmail.com   Instagram   YouTube

In this episode I share my journey back to the United States after being low key deported. I recount the challenges I faced and the obstacles I had to overcome in order to be allowed back into the country. From navigating the legal system to dealing with the emotional toll of being separated from my family and home, I offer a candid and personal account of the struggles I faced.  Join me as I share my story of resilience and perseverance in the face of adversity.   Contact Me  I.nicolerowland@gmail.com   Instagram @pretttynikki

In this episode of the podcast, we dive into the challenges of living in a foreign country while waiting on immigration to process the necessary paperwork to return home to America. Nikki shares her personal experiences and struggles, including navigating the cultural differences, dealing with uncertainty with the immigration process, and finding a sense of stability and community in an unfamiliar place. Through her story we gain insight into the emotional toll of living in limbo and the resilience it takes to persevere through difficult times. Join us as we explore the complexities of immigration and the impact it has on those who must endure the waiting game.   Stay in connected Instagram   Sunday Reset, women's weekly motivational email.    Nikki Rowland YouTube   TikTok

In this episode , Nikki brings you an immersive and captivating personal account titled "From Immigration to Deportation: My Personal Story." She shares her journey through the complex and often daunting process of immigration to the United States, only to be later subjected to deportation. She shares her struggles with navigating the legal system, assimilating into a new culture, and facing the prospect of returning to her home country. Through this podcast episode, listeners will gain an in-depth understanding of the challenges and hardships faced by immigrants in America.  If you're looking for a compelling and thought-provoking podcast episode, this one is not to be missed.

In this episode, I take a moment to update my audience on what's been going on in my life lately. I share some personal experiences and how I've been handling them, along with some insights I've gained from my therapy sessions. Join me as I take you on my personal journey towards growth and healing, and provide you with some valuable lessons that might help you in your own life.   Stay in connected Instagram   Sunday Reset, women's weekly motivational email.    Nikki Rowland YouTube   TikTok

Part two of Nikki's story follows her as she navigates her second custody battle.   Stay in connected Instagram   Sunday Reset, women's weekly motivational email.    Women's Coaching   Nikki Rowland YouTube   TikTok

Nikki is diving into the nuances of her relationship with her ex-husband as she promised. As friendly as it is now, it wasn't always. Undoubtedly, there were times of conflict and court battles. Check out this two-part series to see what lessons Nikki has learned through the breakdown of her marriage.   Connect with me! Instagram   Sunday Reset, women's weekly motivational email.    Women's Coaching   Nikki Rowland YouTube   TikTok