A man growing up in the closet joins the military under “don’t ask, don’t tell” and numbs his identity with alcohol, but after becoming a nurse and after COVID wreaks havoc, his downward spiral hits a new rock bottom that will decide his life or death.

Today’s guest requested to remain anonymous, but if you’d like to contact him, you can email at M2980737@gmail.com.

Content/Trigger Warnings: murder of an animal, domestic abuse, miscarriage, bullying, alcoholism, addiction, self-harm, suicidal ideation, suicide attempt, COVID death, explicit language

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